thevulture

Huge life understanding moment for me yesterday. I finally realized that not everybody wants to know how everything works like I do. Shit, I just crave that knowledge and in my mind everybody wanted to know stuff. So when my mom or my brother would ask be about a certain plant, a political party, computers etc... I would talk and talk and talk. I thought they wanted to know but they don't, they just want to know enough to get by. And all this time they're like telling me how I talk too much and how I look like I'm bragging my intelligence. Shit sorry everybody for seeming like that. I always told you to fuck off whenever you told me I was selfish for bragging about myself when my thoughts were fuck you I could keep this knowledge for myself and I'm helping you make less mistakes because I care. I guess some people just want to make their own mistakes and they don't want to be reminded they have a lot to learn. Mom told me later, well son, you're on your way to becoming a wise man. All this time I knew there was something that was being hidden from me. The adults would always treat me like a fucking child. Acting like they knew more than me, snickering because I'm still young etc... While me, I'm pissed off that they're not teaching me that which they know. Apparently I wasn't ready to hear the truth. Anyway, much needed growth still to be made on my part. I just don't want to be an anal presumptuous asshole like most adults seem to youths.
Somehow though I'm guessing that my mother was always criticizing and correcting us so we'd stay on the right path and when I started immitating that behavior while growing up I got more criticism. Fuck it's the epitome of "do what you are told not what you see".