I'll go ahead and admit it. I'm in a self-pitying mood today. One thing that has me so bummed is that I have not been able to connect with anyone from this site, who actually lives close enough by so we can possibly meet. I am not specifically just talking about dating. All dating apps have been a huge letdown. However, with this site in particular, it's even more discouraging.
I will accept the label of Hipster or snob and say that I do feel like my taste in music is one of my strongest traits. I just don't know anyone who likes what I like and I often feel like I am a weirdo as a result. Well, I feel that way due to a lot of things and how hard it is to relate to others overall. I am more Liberal than most of the people in my life. I am not at all religious either, so it makes life a little tricky to navigate when I live in a somewhat Conservative area. Betsy DeVos is from this region and there are still lots of Trump-supporting evangelicals around.
But, let's not get into all that and get back to why I am here. The music. I have liked pretty much every profile for every user on here, that lives within 100 miles. Many of these people are shown to be "great" matches, but I still don't get any likes back. Maybe no one actually uses the site and the only activity I see here is auto-generated nonsense. Obviously not, but I have seen other dating apps/sites that are full of fake accounts.
It's just really heartbreaking to see so many other users, whom I'd assume I would get along with fantastically, only to also see these people live hundreds, if not thousands, of miles away. Again, I am not looking just for dates at this point. I am desperately craving like-minded people to spend time with. If anyone looks at my activity on here from over the past few months, it's no secret that I have been finding a lot of great music that I want to share with others. I just don't have anyone in my life for that. It's isolating and lonely to experience.
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't really hoping I could find a woman who is smart, funny, attractive, and into a lot of the same things I am into. That she'd be right here in town and open to meeting in person at some point. I think that is what most people want in their preferred gender. An honest to goodness match on enough levels. Someone who not only appeals to you physically, but intellectually and emotionally as well. Someone with whom mutual interests and passions can be shared.
The song, "Somebody" by Depeche Mode has served as my heart's anthem for years now. I can't say I have come that close to making good on that desire. I thought I had at one point, but alas it fell apart. Ironically, as I have begun dipping my toes into the marijuana scene, I do find myself wondering if it would have helped things go differently, had I started using sooner. Of course, there were many other issues that came into play, so I doubt much would have changed.
At the risk of my life becoming a stereotypical joke, I do have to say I have really loved getting a little high and listening to music in the dark. I could easily lose the edibles and turn the lights back on, if I had even one close friend to share the experience of music with.
I've had the same shit luck with other niche websites. One that is meant to be for Geeks and another meant for Secular people. In both situations, there are hardly any users who don't live hours and hours away or, if they do live in the same zip code, they don't seem to be active or interested. COVID or not, I don't think there really is anything out there for me if I were to make more of an effort to get out there. I have no idea where I would even start looking.
Sorry, internet. You fail.