thevampdoyal

SICKENED


Memories are only poisons of the soul
I am the forgotten one, the one alone
Turn my back out of anger, out of pain
Why am I the only one that remebers?
Why, do I, the exacutioner miss the deceased?
Why do I still care when the beheaded don't
Why do I follow trails of blood from the past
Back to homes that I condemed long ago?
Why do I sit in the dark waiting for them to return?
Cold in the corner shaking, hoping, and waiting?
Why can I not be as thee? Happy as can be.
I hate every fucking smile I see, every memory
I pass the judgment, I suffer the consequences
While the condemed roam carfree and blissful
Was I so easily forgotten, dust sweep underneath?
Why the hell do I even care either fucking way?
Does it make me weak that my soul yurns reunion?
That I miss those I left behind when I felt justified?
You hurt me, took for granted everything about me
Then why do I still have to see your ugly faces?
Will I ever be free of those that haunt me within?
Or will I just end up a shell surrounded by the dead?

I miss you!
I hate you!
I miss you!
I hate you!
I hate you!
Beacuse I miss you!
Do I miss you!
Beacuse I hate you?!

Love is a curse!
Love is a plauge!
Love is a sentence!
Love is a prison!
No crue, no key!
Alone I bleed!
Never free!
Forevever diseased!
Kill the memories!
Or kill me!
I demand!
Freedom...freedom...freedom...freedom!