brody dalle
still officially the only woman in this world i would kill somebody to have sex with
still officially the only woman in this world i would kill somebody to have sex with
I think i am going through one of those life/perspective/attitude changing periods of life. Which is always good but always nerve racking. Sometimes i sit back and just try to appreciate how different my life is now from how it was then and sometimes the revelations are inspiring and happy and sometimes they scare the shit out of me. Most of the time I feel...
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tallisker:
You young idealist, you...
The people who refuse to take you seriously often seem to be the ones who take themselves Too seriously. And maybe they're threatened by you, because they probably weren't as smart when they were your age, and they probably aren't as smart as you even now, or as badass. Which can be a little imasculinating for a middle aged man. You have to be careful of their feelings, because middle aged men are fragile creatures.
I know what you mean about the old times gone-ness...sort of. Sometimes I think I have more fun now than I did as a kid. I mean, there are some things I get to do now that you don't do as a kid that are awesome, like have sex and get drunk, but even nixing those pasttimes, it can be just as much fun to roll down a big hill or play pictionary, and I don't cry anymore when I lose. A lot fewer tantrums is nice. Everything gets easier to deal with, but not necessarily less exciting. Sometimes it feels like everyone just allows themselves to get lazy and believe that real fun died with their child-years. But it doesn't! It didn't! It won't!
The people who refuse to take you seriously often seem to be the ones who take themselves Too seriously. And maybe they're threatened by you, because they probably weren't as smart when they were your age, and they probably aren't as smart as you even now, or as badass. Which can be a little imasculinating for a middle aged man. You have to be careful of their feelings, because middle aged men are fragile creatures.
I know what you mean about the old times gone-ness...sort of. Sometimes I think I have more fun now than I did as a kid. I mean, there are some things I get to do now that you don't do as a kid that are awesome, like have sex and get drunk, but even nixing those pasttimes, it can be just as much fun to roll down a big hill or play pictionary, and I don't cry anymore when I lose. A lot fewer tantrums is nice. Everything gets easier to deal with, but not necessarily less exciting. Sometimes it feels like everyone just allows themselves to get lazy and believe that real fun died with their child-years. But it doesn't! It didn't! It won't!
I don't think people really read blogs. Maybe if I was getting naked they would but not now. I have this view of blogging as an echoing cry for attention into the vastness of the internet. And a way for people to rant of course. But alas I think I shall start this one as a first and an experiment.
I've been visiting my grandmother...
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I've been visiting my grandmother...
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tallisker:
Perhaps you are wrong, about nobody reading blogs. But I think you are right about them being some distant cry for attention; I'd never written one before, and I never can adequately express myself, because whatever I write, I still end up sounding like, well, someone who writes blogs, which I didn't think I did.
But yours is a good one; it brings up a lot of thoughts.
My own grandmother would look at old folks in that state and say "just shoot me if I ever get like that." But now she's slipping herself and she doesn't talk that way anymore, and I wonder if you hit a point where what we see as loss of dignity just isn't such a big deal anymore. Not as big a deal as savoring the last moments of being alive, however painful they might be.
So I didn't ask before; is this your mom's adopted or birth mother? And how'd your mom take it? She seemed pretty cheery, but some people are just resilient.
Well, anyway, I'm glad your back, but I'd like to hear more about your trip as it comes up. Umm, maybe we can talk about that for 2 hours instead of waxing and hair pants. BY the way...Mr. Dean says he'll let me shave him head to toe. He would.
But yours is a good one; it brings up a lot of thoughts.
My own grandmother would look at old folks in that state and say "just shoot me if I ever get like that." But now she's slipping herself and she doesn't talk that way anymore, and I wonder if you hit a point where what we see as loss of dignity just isn't such a big deal anymore. Not as big a deal as savoring the last moments of being alive, however painful they might be.
So I didn't ask before; is this your mom's adopted or birth mother? And how'd your mom take it? She seemed pretty cheery, but some people are just resilient.
Well, anyway, I'm glad your back, but I'd like to hear more about your trip as it comes up. Umm, maybe we can talk about that for 2 hours instead of waxing and hair pants. BY the way...Mr. Dean says he'll let me shave him head to toe. He would.