i'm going 2 say this now. I CAN'T SPELL
but i need 2 get this out of me
Today i realized that i am a fucking nobody.
I do nothing all day.
All my "friends" do is get high and drink.
They all think it's ok too, and my friend Ryan, has the worst problem of all of them. He drink all the time and it's like ppl like him more when he drikns. But thoes ppl are dumb and don't care for him. I do and i feel like i'm looesing him.
i've lost the one person that was my hole life!
she was everything, that might be bad but i don't care.
two years and i still love her, i still crave her. I love you Bella...
but i know i am the only one to blame for what she is doing. i am the olny thing that she doesn't need. i bring her down with my free time and i kill her with my jelousy.
i am trying, i swar..
i am trying for you!
but i saw the hole world 2night and saw she was drity. she is emty. she is mine.
but so i don't die out of the hell i'm in i need to know she loves me.
loves me for me.
loves the way i care
loves the way i would die for her
and most of all knows i would walt awy right now if she cant love me now.
i just want 2 know she love me i guess...
i really don't know what 2 do
i hate what i am, and i am trying for you
"And after all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel
But no
I only think about myself
And it's driving you away
I always knew it would one day"
When you shut your eyes and fell asleep
Dark clouds descended on the souls of the ones
Who held you close to their hearts
Close to their hearts
My heart broke [3x]
Open [4x]
The beauty of an embrace a place
To lay down the pain
Where blood and fire bring rest and peace [4x]
I sit away in a secret place the shadow of wings
I think of you [7x]
And my heart breaks open
but i need 2 get this out of me
Today i realized that i am a fucking nobody.
I do nothing all day.
All my "friends" do is get high and drink.
They all think it's ok too, and my friend Ryan, has the worst problem of all of them. He drink all the time and it's like ppl like him more when he drikns. But thoes ppl are dumb and don't care for him. I do and i feel like i'm looesing him.
i've lost the one person that was my hole life!
she was everything, that might be bad but i don't care.
two years and i still love her, i still crave her. I love you Bella...
but i know i am the only one to blame for what she is doing. i am the olny thing that she doesn't need. i bring her down with my free time and i kill her with my jelousy.
i am trying, i swar..
i am trying for you!
but i saw the hole world 2night and saw she was drity. she is emty. she is mine.
but so i don't die out of the hell i'm in i need to know she loves me.
loves me for me.
loves the way i care
loves the way i would die for her
and most of all knows i would walt awy right now if she cant love me now.
i just want 2 know she love me i guess...
i really don't know what 2 do
i hate what i am, and i am trying for you
"And after all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel
But no
I only think about myself
And it's driving you away
I always knew it would one day"
When you shut your eyes and fell asleep
Dark clouds descended on the souls of the ones
Who held you close to their hearts
Close to their hearts
My heart broke [3x]
Open [4x]
The beauty of an embrace a place
To lay down the pain
Where blood and fire bring rest and peace [4x]
I sit away in a secret place the shadow of wings
I think of you [7x]
And my heart breaks open
As for your girl.... hum .... if you really think there is no future ..... it's very hard and will take time but ... FREE YOUR MIND". A very good technic is pretent you have a volume knob on your head. Everytime u start thinking bad things turn the knob down till you can't hear your thought anymore. At the same time think on something good and turn that volume knob up. With time, you will not hear those thoughts again. Well, do this only after communication is not an option anymore.
Peace