God works in really fucked up ways sometimes. Or maybe I just don't get it anymore. Maybe the fact that I don't go to church and follow all the rules of the Roman Catholic Church make me inept somehow to all the bad things in life. When they do happen maybe I'm supposed to say "oh well whats meant to be will be" No I get angry I get disillusioned, I get frustrated and say how can this be a good thing.
I recently (yesterday and today) got two email. One was from my roommate and best friend from the marines. Now this kid was very holy went to chruch as often as he could, hardly ever swore was just a very devout christien. He served two terms in Iraq. His little brother stight out of high School went into the Marines becuase he looked up to his big brother. I haven't heard from my freind in a while so when I got an email yesterday telling me that his little brother was killed June 15 I was devasted. Why? what was the purpose. There wsa no need of it. All it did was just devastate a familly. My friend is heartbroken. I am currently in the beeging stages of stasrting the Chad Maynard Fund...all proceeds will go to the Maynard familly to help ease there suffering.
Then today when I come home from my sisters wedding rehersal I find out that my friends father who has had brain cancer for quite some time died this morning. Again why? What was the point of giving this man brain cancer. He wasn't an evil man. He never killed anyone. He raised a good familly and a good son. Why take him away from that at such a young age.
How do you explain all this death. When there are child molesters and serial rapists getting 3 meals a day and have yard privalges in jail that live what some of them consider better then what they had lifes. Is this fair? Is this just? Scumbags are allowed to live in the prison system till there old and grey and good people get killed when there young. Is this some kind of sick joke God plays on us all. Is that the rewarad you get out of living a good life you get stuck down by the hand of God.
Or maybe the message is he cares and thefore he shows us he cares by bringing us to heaven sooner. But what about the people left behind? Should faith alone be there comforter.
Either way I don't think I'm going to find this answer on a computer screen. I think it has to come wihin. If that means going back to church on a regular basis and finding my soul again than so be it. But for now I'd like all your opinions on this topic.
-Tony "reload" Mucci
I recently (yesterday and today) got two email. One was from my roommate and best friend from the marines. Now this kid was very holy went to chruch as often as he could, hardly ever swore was just a very devout christien. He served two terms in Iraq. His little brother stight out of high School went into the Marines becuase he looked up to his big brother. I haven't heard from my freind in a while so when I got an email yesterday telling me that his little brother was killed June 15 I was devasted. Why? what was the purpose. There wsa no need of it. All it did was just devastate a familly. My friend is heartbroken. I am currently in the beeging stages of stasrting the Chad Maynard Fund...all proceeds will go to the Maynard familly to help ease there suffering.
Then today when I come home from my sisters wedding rehersal I find out that my friends father who has had brain cancer for quite some time died this morning. Again why? What was the point of giving this man brain cancer. He wasn't an evil man. He never killed anyone. He raised a good familly and a good son. Why take him away from that at such a young age.
How do you explain all this death. When there are child molesters and serial rapists getting 3 meals a day and have yard privalges in jail that live what some of them consider better then what they had lifes. Is this fair? Is this just? Scumbags are allowed to live in the prison system till there old and grey and good people get killed when there young. Is this some kind of sick joke God plays on us all. Is that the rewarad you get out of living a good life you get stuck down by the hand of God.
Or maybe the message is he cares and thefore he shows us he cares by bringing us to heaven sooner. But what about the people left behind? Should faith alone be there comforter.
Either way I don't think I'm going to find this answer on a computer screen. I think it has to come wihin. If that means going back to church on a regular basis and finding my soul again than so be it. But for now I'd like all your opinions on this topic.
-Tony "reload" Mucci
muse25:
omg....thats so sad about the boy and the father. Im sorry for the lose and pain of your friends and family. I dont understyand death either...and why some leave sooner than others...and why some stay. The lenght some someones life doesnt make them richer if they never used it wisely....I guess all we can do is make each moment count for ourselves and other. I wish I could give you a hug.