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Friday Jun 16, 2006

Jun 16, 2006
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As you all read this keep in mind this happened after I posted my last post on sunday june 12, at about 1 in the morning.....I did try to take my own life with a kitchen knife and slashed at my wrists.

However North Porvidence Police came to my door when I had the knife to my throat and put a tazar on me. They asked me 3 times to put it down. I however did not cooperate so they decided to tazar me. This led to the demise of my fishtank and me ending up in a physiciatric unit until today just about until 2 hours ago.

When I was in lock up no one diagonosed me and the only diagnosises I have ever gotten is "personaltity disorder not otherwise specified" I have been taking meds and seeking treatment for about 4 years now.

When I was in the care of the physc unit I made peace with god my saying penacne and accepting what I did wsa wrong and that commiting suicide is a sin. I know realize this and doubt very much thata I will try to do it again. I was in allot of pain which I doin't know if you can relate to or not but it is a very complex thing.

I am now charged with 3 felony assault charges on the police officers for the fact there saying I approached them with the knife and resisting arrest. Luckily I have a good lawyer and I will give it my all in this fight against the ever growing oppresive police force in the country. I have made life changes that will allow me to stay safe at night so this dosen't happen again and will get even more counseling in the near future.

Back with more Fire than ever
Anthony A Mucci
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uptight:
yeah I'm really pissed and not interested in any excuses

i guess some people are just possesed with themselves and their own needs

sure they are on holiday and you have to make the most of your time, but that don't mean you can trample on other people's lives

Jun 23, 2006
princelogos:
Ok. I'm checking out your story. If that scene went down like that here the cops would have shot you, so I guess your lucky. I understand that kind of pain. I also recognized some of what you were doing on the boards tonight,( this morning too). You need to realize that you need to ease up on starting street fights with a mob.
I relate to your angst. ( however it's spelled ). Yes and that to ;..I'm shamed that people haul down on any fault they think they see in another to feel better about themselves. There are a lot of efete pukes in this world.
I never meant you personal harm and if I added to your pain , I do appologize.
Jun 26, 2006

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