I see myself in a odd wold
watch scary, horror, suspense movies
sickening, disgusting
disturbing to the normal eye
people getting hacked up
mutilated, tortured and raped
movies with chopped up limbs in freezers
internal organs torn out and eaten
eyes ripped out of heads
while they were still alive and kicking
they scream out their lungs in pain
the scarred look and fear in their one eye
plead for their lives asking why they deserve to die
pathetic look before they are slaughtered
disturbing right?
how people even come up with these sick twisted ideas
im not really sure but its out there
and to me
they are not so creepy
I've dreamed these acts of life
many times I've been attacked
tortured
that right now as I sit in this chair in the dark
with my back turned toward the room
one person can take a razor wire
wrap it around my neck and bleed to a death
roommates come back
they find me decaying body flopped over in my chair
and all the times they make the most sense to me
and in the end
death is really nothing
its jus the way things happen
golden
through the fog of loneliness
each step i walked above water
i would loose my count in the never ending
and could not see what was ahead of me
lookin over the railing
the rapids of water splashed
what a ways down that would be
if i stood up and jumped
i saw the birds gliding through the wind
they looked free
made me wish i would have that feeling for a change
feet blistered, sore
it was almost a never ending trail
into different world of one city..
i saw what was life
and got a taste of what it would be