So
what happens when you're accused of something,
something that makes you sick to your stomach
and violently angry at those who are guilty of it,
and everyone thinks you're guilty based on your personality,
and one of your accusers had previously been something of a close friend,
and one of your closest friends is afraid to be on your side because there are other people now who can be her friend now instead of you?
Add to this the question of being potentially kicked out of a school you have grown to love, with faculty who understand what you need as a student,
and you get the equation for one of the worst times in my life so far.
The only solace I take from the whole thing is that I now know I'm going to be very cool (in the Miles Davis sense) as an artist from now on, and that all this fucking AWFUL will lead to better writing, better performing, better guitar (I'm getting semi-competent: I figured out "Where is my mind?" by ear the other day).
I wish the silver lining weren't so thin.
what happens when you're accused of something,
something that makes you sick to your stomach
and violently angry at those who are guilty of it,
and everyone thinks you're guilty based on your personality,
and one of your accusers had previously been something of a close friend,
and one of your closest friends is afraid to be on your side because there are other people now who can be her friend now instead of you?
Add to this the question of being potentially kicked out of a school you have grown to love, with faculty who understand what you need as a student,
and you get the equation for one of the worst times in my life so far.
The only solace I take from the whole thing is that I now know I'm going to be very cool (in the Miles Davis sense) as an artist from now on, and that all this fucking AWFUL will lead to better writing, better performing, better guitar (I'm getting semi-competent: I figured out "Where is my mind?" by ear the other day).
I wish the silver lining weren't so thin.
If not... Liquor and real friends ( More importantly a combo of the two...) helps when it hurts.