thespis89

A new post have I written.

Also, something I wrote drunk. I haven't touched it yet, though I want to:

So I've been thinking on Innocence. I at first felt like I hadn't really found a point where I lost my innocence. Some people had something traumatic, and what that provides is a culprit, a reason why you lost your innocence, versus just slowly losing it, and lamenting that. But I think when my girlfriend at (14? 15?) cheated on me, it was strange, bizarre. I finally had a notion of what it meant to be an adult, because I could not conceive of this as a childish behavior. I mean, she didn't go all the way with the other guy, but it was still cheating, and I was still conflicted and confused and questioning my own integrity, my own value as a boyfriend. Was there something wrong with me? I wouldn't find out until the break-up that the girl was of the motto, "Have my cake and eat it, too." So at first I was contemplating the slow death of innocence, knowing it's fading (which it still is for me), but not having a culprit like the extreme cases.