It hasn't been long since I have been in a relationship. I just want to preface that before I go on my little spiel.
It's been a while since I have fallen for someone. I haven't found someone as breathtakingly beautiful as I did my ex. I'm not saying that there are not any I have seen but.. You know that feeling you get when you find someone. That person who is just on your mind and you can't get them out of your head.
That's how it was with my ex girlfriend. I thought she was so beautiful when I first saw her. For a year I kept my affection private before I finally asked her out. We spent a wonderful and a grueling six months together. There are something things in the end I was not sure of in that relationship. One thing I was sure about was that I loved her.
I have yet to find that spark. I have seen so many beautiful women on this website but nothing to that effect. (Affect? Fuck it I don't know.) I find myself at time thinking about her and missing her. Then I wonder if I miss that spark more than I missed her. Shit, I'm a mess. I'm just half I'm a skinner mess than I was last year.
