Looking over a few of my past entries, which were fucking genious by the way, makes me long for a brighter, more innocent time, when I had less shit to do, and more time to do it in. Makes me want to crank this bitch up again and have random internet peoples agree with me on how smart yet insanely prickish I am. But funny. Problem is, and I'm sure I stated this before, somewhere, I just don't like the internet, and therefore am only a drifter here, much liken to the RL counterpart me. And I'm just fucking tired now. I tried the school thing, it went ok, but I still can't find a career job. I got laid-off from one job, and quit the other because I had to start pitching sales, which I don't feel like doing, ever. It's been a few months since then. During those months I've scrounged up a few temp jobs, found hope, thought I made a new friend, was dismissed from the temp jobs, the friend turned out to be just another aquaintance, and lost hope again. At a time like this I would just listen to some depressing rock music and get over it eventually. But it's gotten to a point where I'm seeing the large downward spiral against a black backdrop, and where I currently am on that spiral. Which is very nearly at the bottom. I've been here twice before. I'm no psychic, so I don't really know what's gonna happen this time. And I doubt this vent will make any difference. Each year just gets harder. Guess I just feel like thanking everybody who actually helped me get this far, online and off. I've always been one to try something different, just to see what happens.
Let's see what happens this time.
Let's see what happens this time.