Been a minute so I thought I'd update. Started college on the 19th. I'm not all too happy with my classes because they're not that interesting but I can't really complain. I worked really hard for school and now after six years I'm finally going. Some folks can't go to school because of the economy.
Things with the girlfriend were great pretty much up till Tuesday night for stupid reasons of mine I do not want to disclose. It's embarrassing. And then it got even worse last night when I drank way too much. I played the wild zero drinking game twice and ended up doing some pretty stupid shit. Honestly, I'm surprised the cops aren't at my door today.
I was a dick to my mom yesterday. She's currently in court regarding the death of my sister by a drunk driver. They subpoena her and she goes on to tell these people that she gave my sister a few drinks and then a story about having a dream about her death before it happened and some other voodoo shit. What makes this all so bad is that the guy's defense is trying to say that my sister made him hit her because she was drunk, which she was. He was drunk, too but the evidence proving that apparently is not admissible evidence.
Not only that but the guy that hit my sister, his friend is friends with my mom's prosecutor. And her prosecutor keeps screwing my family in court trying to get that one asshole out of doing any time etc etc. I mean the whole thing is a mess and my family who is frankly, really stupid, keep fucking shit up in court. They tell me what they do and I get pissed. Well, my mom does because I'm sorry, my mom is an idiot.
Right now I have a whopping 40 something dollars, owe a lot of money, my relationship is fucked up, my family is fucked up, I'm still fucked up from the Army on numerous levels, my anti-depression meds make it so I can't sleep but I'm always tired and I'm starting to fuck up in college. In general my life is pretty fucked and I'm hating it Oh yeah, and I have no real friends. I feel alone in my shit and the prospect of suicide is becoming increasingly appealing everyday.
But I know things are going to get better. My money for going to school should kick in soon so I need to get my shit straight for class. Money will solve a lot of my problems. I decided to quit drinking and start really exercising. I need to pull myself together. I've worked too hard to throw my future away.
Things with the girlfriend were great pretty much up till Tuesday night for stupid reasons of mine I do not want to disclose. It's embarrassing. And then it got even worse last night when I drank way too much. I played the wild zero drinking game twice and ended up doing some pretty stupid shit. Honestly, I'm surprised the cops aren't at my door today.
I was a dick to my mom yesterday. She's currently in court regarding the death of my sister by a drunk driver. They subpoena her and she goes on to tell these people that she gave my sister a few drinks and then a story about having a dream about her death before it happened and some other voodoo shit. What makes this all so bad is that the guy's defense is trying to say that my sister made him hit her because she was drunk, which she was. He was drunk, too but the evidence proving that apparently is not admissible evidence.
Not only that but the guy that hit my sister, his friend is friends with my mom's prosecutor. And her prosecutor keeps screwing my family in court trying to get that one asshole out of doing any time etc etc. I mean the whole thing is a mess and my family who is frankly, really stupid, keep fucking shit up in court. They tell me what they do and I get pissed. Well, my mom does because I'm sorry, my mom is an idiot.
Right now I have a whopping 40 something dollars, owe a lot of money, my relationship is fucked up, my family is fucked up, I'm still fucked up from the Army on numerous levels, my anti-depression meds make it so I can't sleep but I'm always tired and I'm starting to fuck up in college. In general my life is pretty fucked and I'm hating it Oh yeah, and I have no real friends. I feel alone in my shit and the prospect of suicide is becoming increasingly appealing everyday.
But I know things are going to get better. My money for going to school should kick in soon so I need to get my shit straight for class. Money will solve a lot of my problems. I decided to quit drinking and start really exercising. I need to pull myself together. I've worked too hard to throw my future away.
sorry youre going through all this stuff.