Why do I hurt when I see other people happy? Why does it bringer pain to see friends together laughing and enjoying each other? I have friends but is it something in me that doesn't feel the same about them? Do I not share that same feeling with them? If I say yes, do I take my friendships for granted? Am I being dishonest or disrespectful to them? If I say no am I lying to myself? Is my camaraderie based on lies?
Why does it hurt to see others experiencing joy with friends? Am I broken? Or maybe it's not my friends, maybe...I don't what joy is...