Wednesday Aug 18, 2010

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I need to be careful. If there is no Path no one way of obtaining enlightenment with nothing too obtain then it doesnt matter where I am when I practice. It would be a mistake to believe that I must go Mu Sang Sad temple, become a hermit on the mountain, or any other place for that matter. This is attachment to the appearances to...
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thunaha:

You're reading to deep into it. The 'path' to enlightenment is realizing that you have to live and let live. follow your heart and enjoy whatever comes your way.

one day you'll die and maybe everything's not what everybody's been saying. who's to say? just follow your heart and your passions.

be a part of society, strive to make change. stir up the waters in a good way. and when life knocks you down, you can only come back up and stand on your own two feet.

Sunday Aug 15, 2010

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(I wrote this to some very close friends so the format is alittle off but I figured it would make a good blog anyway)

Subject: Bitter work

Body:
If you see through this world and let go of it then this is wisdom. If you see through it and do not let it go thats just talking Zen

I have to ask myself why I...
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Saturday Aug 07, 2010

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I am super excited to get out of St Cloud for a while. it used to be a monthly thing going down there and hanging out for a day but now its like every two or three months. Typically we go get some food, see a movie, or go read at a cool coffee shop. The main point really is just to get the fuck...
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Monday Aug 02, 2010

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I need more zombie movies in my life. I watched Zombieland last night for the second time. I was drunk the first time so my opinion of it wasnt very justified so I figured a second look was warranted this time I loved it. I have seen 28 days later, the obligatory and necessary addition to any horror/zombie film list, its in fact one...
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Friday Jul 30, 2010

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I am incredibly tired but I dont want to sleep I have absolutely no interest in sleep. I know that depriving myself of sleep like I have been doing for the past week or more isnt healthy. I am noticing the effects both physically & psychologically but I still dont care. Its not like I have some chemical help or anything. Man I wish I did...
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sophia108:

Been there...

Thursday Feb 11, 2010

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I was asked by my cousin how things were going

Actually that is a very complicated question. Before I had entered the hospital I had given up for the most part. Just didnt think I could go on and planed to end my life. But there are some people that I owe it to ethically to take care of myself (glen/my dad, Cassandra, john...
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praesepe:

brave of you to go get help, glad you did. i hope things are getting better.


you left me some very thoughtful and sweet comments, thank you very much blush

Thursday Feb 11, 2010

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Tanka style poem i just wrote:

How do i change now?
To become the mountain
immovable, stalwart
never feel the winter wind.
Please oh God make me a stone!

Tuesday Jan 26, 2010

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Life is suffering, suffering is caused by desire, when one satisfies a desire another comes to take its place, therefore satisfying a desire is not the way. One must become not enslaved to feelings/people/things/emotions & realize there is no-thing (not nothing) in this way one may attain Anuttara Samyak Sambodhi & be awakened thus reverting to the way one actually is. No ego consciousness...
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Sunday Jan 24, 2010

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I was in weavers basement after a LAN party. Randazle and I had smoked this shit quality meth and were there hanging out as everyone else was sleep. Anyway, I remember listening to The Get up Kids cover of Alec Eiffel while listening to that song I realized what I wanted to do with my life namely I wanted to cook Meth. This was six...
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