Wow, its been over a year since I've been on this site. I miss the beautiful girls. I hate having an image crisis every time I fucking go the grocery store and stand in line to by tampons and food. Its fucking stupid.
That said, I'll explain my life in the last year. I'm 25 now. holy shit. I quit art school last summer and decided to go into computer science instead. I've been working this last year taking the lower division stuff and I start at UC Irvine in a few weeks as a junior comp sci major.
I met a wonderful man who treated me better than anyone ever had before. We were together for the better part of a year.
I went to London. I am totally going to do a study abroad in the UK and maybe live in Europe for a while one day. I can't wait to see more of Europe and the rest of the world. Traveling just that little bit was so fucking amazing.
I've bonded with my older sisters in a way and on a level that I never, ever thought I would. Its very powerful in this way I can't explain. Its kinda crazy, that kinship thing I took for granted for so long.
I've become really good friends with "the" ex-boyfriend. We like, can have dinner together and I can be totally honest with him and he knows me better than almost anyone I know and we can talk like childhood friends and he can help me through things and we can laugh about all the shit that we used to do together. There's no sexual pretense or bitter feelings or grudges. They have melted away with time, and left a new friendship in its place.
I have become a huge fan of wine. I've built up enough of a mild tolerance that I can no happily split a bottle at dinner with someone and not feel sick afterwards. (That is about all the tolerance I need
My life has changed faster this summer than it has in the last 3 years. Maybe I am exaggerating.
My grandparents sold the house that they lived in for 50 years. I lived there for several years, up until about 2 months ago.
I've learned to use Quicken and a credit card responsibly.
I've learned to mediate and I've seen my best friend from childhood get married, and is now pregnant.
3 of my former housemates are getting married or have gotten married and one of them is having a baby soon also.
I've learned to bond with women who are both older and younger than me and not related to me.
I can honestly say I love my mom. I can call her when I'm struggling.
I can honestly say I love my grandma and I miss having conversations about religion and politics and how the world has changed over the last 50 years with her.
I have an awesome summer internship at USC's ICT lab. I am getting paid rather nicely to learn very cool things. I am working on this project called FlatWorld, which is a "mixed reality" simulation/environment funded by the military where there are large 8'x10' flat screens with 3d stereo animation projected onto it and an AI system so you can talk to the characters and have them react to you or other events in the system. Its mostly for training simulations and PTSD research and therapy.
More on that here:
A wired.com article on the PTSD stuff I'm helping out with now.
The first thing I did was learn to MEL script and saved the 3d artists about 2 months of work with a few scripts. That made me feel really cool. I wrote some scripts to reassign these shader networks to make things compatible from one version of Maya to the next and ready to work for plugins that were only available in the more recent version of the software.
The next thing I did was make some 3d assests which I got to poly model and texture myself. They turned out pretty nice, actually. And I got to integrate it into the city environments.
Then I wrote some perl scripts to parse some files to make a whole new scene of content. I think my coworkers were happy with that. Now I'm integrating new 3d stuff into the environment for the PTSD project.
Today I debugged this thing with my cute coworker and I learned something about multi-threaded programming in the process.
Yea, I love my job.
I just moved into a new place in Santa Ana with 2 girls who are my age. This is my first time on my own. I mean, I've lived not at home for many years, with several housemates, but that was also with a boyfriend before. This is the first time I'm paying my own rent and that kind of thing and I feel so proud of myself and like I'm so grown up in a way and I lucked out and I'm just super excited to start school and this entire new phase of my life.
Maybe, if I let go of my fears and inhibitions for one second, this is that place I've been trying to get to for a long, long time.
That said, I'll explain my life in the last year. I'm 25 now. holy shit. I quit art school last summer and decided to go into computer science instead. I've been working this last year taking the lower division stuff and I start at UC Irvine in a few weeks as a junior comp sci major.
I met a wonderful man who treated me better than anyone ever had before. We were together for the better part of a year.
I went to London. I am totally going to do a study abroad in the UK and maybe live in Europe for a while one day. I can't wait to see more of Europe and the rest of the world. Traveling just that little bit was so fucking amazing.
I've bonded with my older sisters in a way and on a level that I never, ever thought I would. Its very powerful in this way I can't explain. Its kinda crazy, that kinship thing I took for granted for so long.
I've become really good friends with "the" ex-boyfriend. We like, can have dinner together and I can be totally honest with him and he knows me better than almost anyone I know and we can talk like childhood friends and he can help me through things and we can laugh about all the shit that we used to do together. There's no sexual pretense or bitter feelings or grudges. They have melted away with time, and left a new friendship in its place.
I have become a huge fan of wine. I've built up enough of a mild tolerance that I can no happily split a bottle at dinner with someone and not feel sick afterwards. (That is about all the tolerance I need
My life has changed faster this summer than it has in the last 3 years. Maybe I am exaggerating.
My grandparents sold the house that they lived in for 50 years. I lived there for several years, up until about 2 months ago.
I've learned to use Quicken and a credit card responsibly.
I've learned to mediate and I've seen my best friend from childhood get married, and is now pregnant.
3 of my former housemates are getting married or have gotten married and one of them is having a baby soon also.
I've learned to bond with women who are both older and younger than me and not related to me.
I can honestly say I love my mom. I can call her when I'm struggling.
I can honestly say I love my grandma and I miss having conversations about religion and politics and how the world has changed over the last 50 years with her.
I have an awesome summer internship at USC's ICT lab. I am getting paid rather nicely to learn very cool things. I am working on this project called FlatWorld, which is a "mixed reality" simulation/environment funded by the military where there are large 8'x10' flat screens with 3d stereo animation projected onto it and an AI system so you can talk to the characters and have them react to you or other events in the system. Its mostly for training simulations and PTSD research and therapy.
More on that here:
A wired.com article on the PTSD stuff I'm helping out with now.
The first thing I did was learn to MEL script and saved the 3d artists about 2 months of work with a few scripts. That made me feel really cool. I wrote some scripts to reassign these shader networks to make things compatible from one version of Maya to the next and ready to work for plugins that were only available in the more recent version of the software.
The next thing I did was make some 3d assests which I got to poly model and texture myself. They turned out pretty nice, actually. And I got to integrate it into the city environments.
Then I wrote some perl scripts to parse some files to make a whole new scene of content. I think my coworkers were happy with that. Now I'm integrating new 3d stuff into the environment for the PTSD project.
Today I debugged this thing with my cute coworker and I learned something about multi-threaded programming in the process.
Yea, I love my job.
I just moved into a new place in Santa Ana with 2 girls who are my age. This is my first time on my own. I mean, I've lived not at home for many years, with several housemates, but that was also with a boyfriend before. This is the first time I'm paying my own rent and that kind of thing and I feel so proud of myself and like I'm so grown up in a way and I lucked out and I'm just super excited to start school and this entire new phase of my life.
Maybe, if I let go of my fears and inhibitions for one second, this is that place I've been trying to get to for a long, long time.
Hey, did you know Insaniac and I are getting married in January? another to your list of married folks!
I'm a sad Sporky