thera

I am officially finished with school. I am going to be a big bad senior next year. holy shit!

i heard this quote from a friend of mine:

"if you want something bad enough, the entire universe will conspire to give it to you."

i'm beginning to believe that there is indeed truth to that.

i have too many thoughts in my head to really explain it all here.

i am excited about summer school and new directions in my life.

i am, for the first time in my life, honestly happy, with myself. this is not to say that i am satiated, because i am not.

i received the most wonderful compliment of my life a few days ago.

i have recently made incredible new friends that i am grateful for. i am in a new place internally, i feel balanced, ambitious, curious, motivated, excited. i feel in control of my own destiny for once.... i feel so amazed to be in control of my own life. I don't have to live it in consideration of someone else.

its one of those things that possibly couldn't have happened any other way, and makes any other past drama in my life seem all the more worth it to have gotten here.

i remember 5 years ago i sight my sights on some goals that I wanted to achieve. a lot of people i knew sort of shrugged and didn't really expect me to achieve them. it was the top of the ladder back then.

i've achieved every one of those goals and then some. Now, i realize that wasn't the top... i can just see higher .

so, i'm working on figuring out what and where i am going next.