thepiratelauren

my sister is in the hospital again.

every time she's there, i feel like what if this is the last time?

and it eats me up.

i may not have children, but i worry like a mother. i raised her. and i shouldn't be as scared as i am about this. i worry it's cancer (i can't do that again) and i worry she'll stop breathing. and i didn't want to leave, but now that my mom has decided she's sober enough to be a parent. i have to step out. i go home to my apartment and worry.