thepiratelauren

i'm trying to decide if i'm in a bad mood or just being in a funk. i have yet to take a shower. which is probably contributing to the wierd mood. i am trying to decide, or rather just see if boys appreciate big gestures. like if they think they're cute, like most girls do, or if they think they're creepy. dropping ice cream on the doorstep isn't creepy, at least, i don't think so. i am just trying to show that i care. that i am here. but apparently, i shouldn't be here and he doesn't want me to be. for now, he can handle it. and i am entirely sick of waiting for my check to clear.

on the upside, i am going to rancid tomorrow night. which pumps me up. but i will have no money for anything.

oh, and i think i am gonna stop drinking. like for good. it just seems to be like the best thing for me. i won't make an ass of myself. or start fights. or just generally be anything like i am when i am intoxicated.