"Now I stand here alone in the dark, Without you
Theres nothing more that I would like, Than be with you
I close my eyes, but I cant stop, Thinking of you"
It' 2:30, I should be setting in Minneapolis waiting on my connecting flight to Portland, but instead I am here. I was ok with my decicion to stay, sure it hurt, but I thought maybe in a few weeks when things had calmed down between us we could meet. We talked this morning though and now I am really hurting, so much so I was going to risk getting stuck in Minneapolis to fly stand by, but she says she is tired of being YO-YO'd and that I need to stay here. She doesn't want to get her hopes up and me not be able to get a flight. I understand her decision, and I respect it, but it hurts alot worse now because I realized I was looking at this whole situation backwards. Now I see it head on and I was fucking stupid, and may have lost a friend in the process.
I wish I had saw the situation this way yesterday, but hind-sight is 20/20 I guess. I hope you have a good weekend, wether you go on a road trip or go out with friends, and I am truely sorry I can't be there with you.
I guess if it is meant to be, we'll find a way, but that doesn't make it any easier.
Theres nothing more that I would like, Than be with you
I close my eyes, but I cant stop, Thinking of you"

It' 2:30, I should be setting in Minneapolis waiting on my connecting flight to Portland, but instead I am here. I was ok with my decicion to stay, sure it hurt, but I thought maybe in a few weeks when things had calmed down between us we could meet. We talked this morning though and now I am really hurting, so much so I was going to risk getting stuck in Minneapolis to fly stand by, but she says she is tired of being YO-YO'd and that I need to stay here. She doesn't want to get her hopes up and me not be able to get a flight. I understand her decision, and I respect it, but it hurts alot worse now because I realized I was looking at this whole situation backwards. Now I see it head on and I was fucking stupid, and may have lost a friend in the process.

I wish I had saw the situation this way yesterday, but hind-sight is 20/20 I guess. I hope you have a good weekend, wether you go on a road trip or go out with friends, and I am truely sorry I can't be there with you.

I guess if it is meant to be, we'll find a way, but that doesn't make it any easier.
