Had a good time in NY. Would have been nice to stay longer, have enough time to visit some folks, but I'll probably run back up this summer when I have more time.
Did I miss anything here while I was gone?
Did I miss anything here while I was gone?
VIEW 15 of 15 COMMENTS
Honestly.. I started drinking really heavily lately when my last girlfriend died.. it became an escape. Now, I have another girl.. I feel guilty because the last one died loving me.. and.. well.. it sucks. Its something that eats at me. Im not meaning to dump that on you.. but, yeah. hehe. I know I have issues.
It's really hard for me. I moved on.. and there is a part of me that feels like I am cheating.. we were serious.. I did love her, too.. I still do, I guess.. but, she isnt coming back. People tell me its what she would want.. and people here echo the same sentiment.. but, I dont know. I feel like I am doing something incredibly wrong by being with the new girl.
By the way.. she died from congestive heart failure. She just had a bad heart. It wasn't fair. She wasn't what most people would expect when you say somebody died of heart failure.. she was very far from being fat... and she was only 21. It still breaks my heart every day.
The new girl knows all about it.. and thankfully she understands what I am going through.. if it wasnt for her I would go insane. She is my guiding light now.. I feel really strongly for her.. its not love.. but, it's a feeling I have never felt before.. it just feels "right"... Its hard to explain.
Sorry about rambling...