I don't know if I'll ever fully understand how someone can be so easy and yet so hard to love.
These past few years have been the best, most wonderful, most stressful years i've ever experienced. I wouldn't trade it for anything. But goddamn, what a ride.
Regardless of how you may hurt me, unwittingly or not, I am always here for you. For some reason I can't communicate everything to you that I want to. It's blocked. It won't come out... perhaps it is a defense mechanism I developed much earlier in our relationship to prevent myself from major pain... but I will try to get over it. I just need to work on it slowly. I will work on it for you. I hope you know I would do anything for you. All you need to do is ask. I'll always be here for you to fall back on.
I will always love you. And my mind is a fucking blank otherwise at this moment. Shit.
Off to work.
These past few years have been the best, most wonderful, most stressful years i've ever experienced. I wouldn't trade it for anything. But goddamn, what a ride.
Regardless of how you may hurt me, unwittingly or not, I am always here for you. For some reason I can't communicate everything to you that I want to. It's blocked. It won't come out... perhaps it is a defense mechanism I developed much earlier in our relationship to prevent myself from major pain... but I will try to get over it. I just need to work on it slowly. I will work on it for you. I hope you know I would do anything for you. All you need to do is ask. I'll always be here for you to fall back on.
I will always love you. And my mind is a fucking blank otherwise at this moment. Shit.
Off to work.
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theocean______:
Onie Messed up --- she posted that previous comment while logged in as me. So, if anyone is confused, the above comment is Onie speaking to me, not me speaking to her, or better yet, me speaking to myself. Man, she's making me look lame! 
wyspurr:
that's right, thanks....i totally forgot about that