So, there is this girl...(stop reading now, I swear) and she's getting married in May to a boy I've only met once before. I have spent the last 4 years basically inseparable from her. Today she suggested that we attempt to spend a week without emailing, texting, or calling each other. In the last year, especially, I have not ben with out some sort of contact with her for more than a day or day and a half. This is a test for her. She wants to know if she can deal without having me around all the time. She's either had him or, when he was overseas, she had me to take care of her. And she's done a lot to take care of me.
I haven't been this scared in a long time. I'm afraid that I'll find out that I need her more than I know. That I need her to be happy. I'm afraid of the opposite too. That I don't need her, that I'm just lost. And I don't know which is better.
A week will tell. The tears will tell. Sigh. It's going to be a long week.
This is an experiment. We are testing for something intangible.
Love's Litmus
I haven't been this scared in a long time. I'm afraid that I'll find out that I need her more than I know. That I need her to be happy. I'm afraid of the opposite too. That I don't need her, that I'm just lost. And I don't know which is better.
A week will tell. The tears will tell. Sigh. It's going to be a long week.
This is an experiment. We are testing for something intangible.
Love's Litmus
trevallion:
I had something like that once. We weren't technically inseperable, but I talked to her constantly and she always complained about her fiance. She was half-heartedly planning to get married to him, and then he pushed the marriage like 9 months sooner and they actually went through with it. I was really heartbroken about it, and I don't think I talked to her for something like a year. I guess I got over it eventually, but we never regained that friendship. I guess that's not really helpful, but at least I know where you're coming from.