thenine

I need some random advice. It's about a girl. Typical story. I fell in love with her. She's like the best friend I've ever had. We get along great, we spent a lot of time together. All that. She just moved away for a job. I miss her. But the hard part is that she's engaged to be married in May. Pretty sure that I would've married her given the time. But I missed my opportunity. I've been having a hard time moving on, I guess that's the word. Trouble getting her off my mind. We spent 4 years of college basically at each other's sides and now she's gone. From constant companion to gone in a matter or a week. So maybe that has a lot to do with it. No transition time.

Anyway, I need a really concrete way of moving forward. Something tells me I just need to find a girl of my own. Which is admittedly difficult when in a funk to start with. No one likes a boy in a funk. Also, this is compounded by the fact that I'm not all that social and I've never really been into the whole dating monstrosity. I've only really fallen in love with girls I was friends with already. On one hand, I think maybe I just need to snuggle up next to a girl and feel loved by someone else. But I don't want to displace the emotions. That's not fair. On the other hand I might consider just chilling out and getting life organized first (job, apartment, etc.). Still, I'm in need of something. I feel like something's missing now that she's gone.

So, what say you SG land? Is there no concrete goal I can aim for to make it a little more bearable. Some trick to stop thinking of her at every possible moment? Excommunicate my self? Extrovert myself? Write? Yell? Run? Panic? Anything at al would help. I'm feeling at a loss.

I need some one to love me back for once.