I am 25 today. I had to work and that sucked. But, I did have someone make me a cake and decorate it with weener dogs. That was pretty much the nicest thing ever. Hardly anyone said anything to me today and I know they knew it was my birthday because of the giant weener cake on my desk. It was kind of lame. I did get to go out last night and drank for free which is always radical. Plus, HeathenessB gave me one of those old lady chains for my glasses. I have been wanting one forever. I look pretty sweet with it on. And the lovely Larianna sent me an awesome card and a little day of the dead figure...she knows I like them a lot! I got a card from my Mom that made me explode into tears when I read it.
I have a pretty big Mom Shaped Hole that has never been filled and any little "mom" type thing I get from her makes me realize how much it has affected me. She wrote that she often wonders what it would have been like if we could have spent more time together, but that she still adores me as much as she did when I was born. It is so strange for me to think that I was inside her at one time. I have never had a close relationship with her, so it is very difficult for me to even comprehend the fact that she gave birth to me. I wonder if she missed me. I mean, she did take care of me when I was a baby and did all the things moms do for babies. I can't really imagine how it was possible for her to give me up like she did. I could see if she had nothing to do with me from the start, but moms are supposed to have a certain bond with their children that is instant and strong. Plus, she is such a good mom to my younger siblings. It just kind of hurts a little to think that maybe I wasn't as important or something. Well, that is pretty emo.
Anyway, Bruce's kids come in tomorrow and I am supposed to be getting things in order for that, but I am so damn tired. This 8 to 5 bull crap is just not working for me. I can't sleep when I know I have to get up early. Blah. Only a few more days and then I am off for 4.5 days! Woooo.
I have a pretty big Mom Shaped Hole that has never been filled and any little "mom" type thing I get from her makes me realize how much it has affected me. She wrote that she often wonders what it would have been like if we could have spent more time together, but that she still adores me as much as she did when I was born. It is so strange for me to think that I was inside her at one time. I have never had a close relationship with her, so it is very difficult for me to even comprehend the fact that she gave birth to me. I wonder if she missed me. I mean, she did take care of me when I was a baby and did all the things moms do for babies. I can't really imagine how it was possible for her to give me up like she did. I could see if she had nothing to do with me from the start, but moms are supposed to have a certain bond with their children that is instant and strong. Plus, she is such a good mom to my younger siblings. It just kind of hurts a little to think that maybe I wasn't as important or something. Well, that is pretty emo.
Anyway, Bruce's kids come in tomorrow and I am supposed to be getting things in order for that, but I am so damn tired. This 8 to 5 bull crap is just not working for me. I can't sleep when I know I have to get up early. Blah. Only a few more days and then I am off for 4.5 days! Woooo.
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Sorry about the mom thing. You know I am right there with you.
How long are the kids in town for?
And, are you feeling better now? 'Cause currently, I have a fever and am miserable, and I think this means that you telekenetically gave me your sickness. Yes.
merry christmas to you and your family