thenewmexican

as a few of you read, i was severely addicted to kissing this one particular girl then she dropped me. after 3 weeks of not sleeping alone and the sex that comes with not taking showers alone, waking up and falling asleep alone; i got dumped. no heads up, no fight, not a hint of anything gone sour. just like that: no call, no show, no response to email texts words from friends... i was in awe. i don't consider myself a god in bed nor a horse when standing naked but i had never given someone that much dick + alittle loving and gotten dumped. i was amazed hurt and confused. hell, i'm still confused and burnt about it a month later. well, today she responded. she said she was scared, confused, and decided to run. she claims she felt something strong for me and was really stressed out at that time so she decided to run away from me. now i'm pissed... dare i even write her back with an emotional tone of understanding or should i go for the gusto and make it worth more hate than i feel for red states? hell, it hurt just seeing that she responded...
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so i responded. and fuck i'm still not happy. i hooked her a solid email of understanding but explained what i was doing in that relationship with her and why i've cut her out of the ties we had together since. and no rae i haven't decided if i want you to kick her ass... but yeah i do realize i've done similar to some women before and somethings are karma. oh the fuck well... i'm off to find food!
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todays most favoritest songs:
black flag - TV party
matisyahu - king w/o a crown
HIM - killing loneliness