So, I know this girl named Becky. Rebecca. I'm not sure what she prefers. I've known her for a few years, but our conversations have always been agonizingly brief. We're shy, or she is and I'm stupid.
We went to the same high school, but were in different grades. Who I was in high school (three years ago) is of course not who I am today, so I'm glad we didn't get too together then, because I would have ruined it.
Now she goes to a school a hundred miles away or so. We see each other once every two months or so, and when we do, there's a spark. Shortness of breath, twinkle of eyes (hers, at least. I'd hope mine twinkle).
I got it bad, and every time we see each other I can't speak. I can speak, but I can't think of anything to say. No wit, no charm, no fire, no energy, no nothing. I'm struck dumb.
I'm not pretending this is a new experience to humanity. And it's not a new experience to me. Most times when I meet new people, one-on-one, I'm a completely mute, or I'm an idiot. But those times don't matter. I don't care what they think of me. I care what she thinks of me.
Goddammit.
We went to the same high school, but were in different grades. Who I was in high school (three years ago) is of course not who I am today, so I'm glad we didn't get too together then, because I would have ruined it.
Now she goes to a school a hundred miles away or so. We see each other once every two months or so, and when we do, there's a spark. Shortness of breath, twinkle of eyes (hers, at least. I'd hope mine twinkle).
I got it bad, and every time we see each other I can't speak. I can speak, but I can't think of anything to say. No wit, no charm, no fire, no energy, no nothing. I'm struck dumb.
I'm not pretending this is a new experience to humanity. And it's not a new experience to me. Most times when I meet new people, one-on-one, I'm a completely mute, or I'm an idiot. But those times don't matter. I don't care what they think of me. I care what she thinks of me.
Goddammit.
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sjtwelve:
Gummo. I liked it. But I've only seen it once. Maybe if I see it again (you saw it 4 times??) I will think differently. Everyone I know hated it. I think they hated it because it gave them an icky feeling. My contention is, if that's what the movie set out to do, then it was a success. I like the fine line between documentary and drama. It was absolutely painful to watch. But you gotta love Chloe!
bort79:
Well its like this do you want to send the rest of your life wondering what would of happened if you asked her out or do you want to take a chance of being rejected and just do it? I say just do it dammit!!! Anyway good luck!!! 