themadcaplaughs

I was looking back through my journal entries... *sigh* I write some real downer stuff... I wonder if people who read this just think another damn emo guy...

I wonder what people would think if I wrote just about my sucesses I've had... then they'd prolly thing "what a stuck up guy"...

I'll just type what I feel... I could write better, I could write worse but here I can just type it all out.

I recently put my resume in for a job in Seattle... I'm really starting to hope that comes through (a long shot)... it would be great to have a new start somewhere and get out of where I am. I've lived here in even the same house for 17 years... in the same room.

Sometimes things just become too routine, you fall into a rut... even personally. Change... is it easier to change myself or to change my environment and adapt... for me... I think it is easier for me to adapt as my environment will inspire change.

We'll see... I just feel very... caged I guess is the word... with alot of people looking at me (for guidance, to critique, whatever) but none of them take a chance and let me run.