ive been not so here....
the past week sucked my left nut. all rainy and cold n shit... friday on was so nice though i wanted to go streaking...at night, at night.....jeez
instead i barely made it to my ink appt. on time and got me some ouchies.
i like to consider myself not so pussy but this time i was squirming a bit. kyle just smirks. i grit my teeth. <must...not...hold....breath....must...not...vocalize...pain>
see the "elbow pit" on around to soft inner forearm is no picnic. especially when were packing in solid color. when i say full sleeve i mean it. no blank spots for me thanks. at least he midway switched to a 23 needle shader.....that thing was as wide as...i dunno something else that is really wide.
the point is it doesnt hurt as much. i never owned one. i never knew they existed. the biggest needle i carry in my bag is a 15 needle round. i think ive used one once. the tubes uncomfortable to hold. anyway my arm is a bit swollen. i look like popeye. cept for the little blue pants, i wore those yesterday. but then, dr. jameson is on the job, arent you, you little green bottle of liquid butt love.....<pinching cheek>
concerning the last assignment i gave.....did the burger king thing, sans camera....no one to hold it.
wasnt gonna do the toga thing since the store next to the toga is an art gallery im thinking of trying to get something into....
new assignment:
tonight....use thelefthand....yeah you know what i mean......
lefty
the past week sucked my left nut. all rainy and cold n shit... friday on was so nice though i wanted to go streaking...at night, at night.....jeez
instead i barely made it to my ink appt. on time and got me some ouchies.
i like to consider myself not so pussy but this time i was squirming a bit. kyle just smirks. i grit my teeth. <must...not...hold....breath....must...not...vocalize...pain>
see the "elbow pit" on around to soft inner forearm is no picnic. especially when were packing in solid color. when i say full sleeve i mean it. no blank spots for me thanks. at least he midway switched to a 23 needle shader.....that thing was as wide as...i dunno something else that is really wide.
the point is it doesnt hurt as much. i never owned one. i never knew they existed. the biggest needle i carry in my bag is a 15 needle round. i think ive used one once. the tubes uncomfortable to hold. anyway my arm is a bit swollen. i look like popeye. cept for the little blue pants, i wore those yesterday. but then, dr. jameson is on the job, arent you, you little green bottle of liquid butt love.....<pinching cheek>
concerning the last assignment i gave.....did the burger king thing, sans camera....no one to hold it.
wasnt gonna do the toga thing since the store next to the toga is an art gallery im thinking of trying to get something into....
new assignment:
tonight....use thelefthand....yeah you know what i mean......
lefty
Anyway, to answer the question you asked
in your last comment to my journal:
Why would I avoid the love of my life?
God that is a tough question. Two years ago it seemed easy to answer. Now, I don't know.
But here goes.
Because he is the love of my life and I can't just be friends anymore. Not with a man who does more for me with a hug or a casual touch than most men could do for me with hours of concerted effort. Not when he and I both know that we are more than friends no matter what limitations we may place on the friendship.
Because he belongs to another.
Because I love him too much to force him into making a choice that he will always hate himself for.
Because I waited too long for him to choose me.
Because I no longer believed that someday he would stop lying. To me, to her, but, most of all, to himself.
Because I know he loves me. If he didn't this would all be so much easier for me.
But he does. Just not enough.
but i'm back home now.