Today I went to my mother's memorial service.
It was very difficult but nice as well. When I got to the funeral home, my family were standing there talking to each other and reminiscing. Their eyes were all red with tears. There was music in the background that we had picked out; mostly The Beatles and Sarah McLachlan. Then something hit me; I just sat down and started crying. It felt so good to let it all out. I feel like I finally paid my mom the respect she deserved by showing that I really was feeling grief all along.
The Eulogy was beautiful. The rabbi talked about her life and how she affected other people. And despite her many problems and struggles in life, she was a remarkable person and was loved by many. It really made me feel better to hear that.
After he was done speaking, I went to talk to my friends Heather and Misty who had stayed through the whole thing. I gave them both a big group hug and cried right there on their shoulders. They were both so supportive and loving. I will never forget that. Not ever.
Overall today was a very tiring and very relieving day. I am glad it is finally over with. Now she can rest, and we got to say our final goodbyes. The hard part is getting used to her not being here. I'm sure it'll take some time to fully accept it.
It was very difficult but nice as well. When I got to the funeral home, my family were standing there talking to each other and reminiscing. Their eyes were all red with tears. There was music in the background that we had picked out; mostly The Beatles and Sarah McLachlan. Then something hit me; I just sat down and started crying. It felt so good to let it all out. I feel like I finally paid my mom the respect she deserved by showing that I really was feeling grief all along.
The Eulogy was beautiful. The rabbi talked about her life and how she affected other people. And despite her many problems and struggles in life, she was a remarkable person and was loved by many. It really made me feel better to hear that.
After he was done speaking, I went to talk to my friends Heather and Misty who had stayed through the whole thing. I gave them both a big group hug and cried right there on their shoulders. They were both so supportive and loving. I will never forget that. Not ever.
Overall today was a very tiring and very relieving day. I am glad it is finally over with. Now she can rest, and we got to say our final goodbyes. The hard part is getting used to her not being here. I'm sure it'll take some time to fully accept it.
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jaxs1984:
I'm real sorry to hear that and I hope your ok ..
devil_bitch:
I feel like such an asshole for not even realizing that you are going through all of this. I am so sorry for not giving you the attention, time, and respect that you deserve. You have my deepest condolenses, my heartfelt empathy, my shoulder, my ears, and whatever else I can do to help you right now.