"the question is-are you finished,or can you do 5 more?" my trainer asks as (i thought) i was in the middle of my last rep.
"i'm not finished." willpower takes over...
"good! that's what i like to hear!" the man says-i have four reps left.
"uh,huh"one down.
"push,john" two more.i'm determined to control my shaking.
"c'mon now" one left.my outer tricep feels like it is burning through my arm.
"one more. let's go john...grow" the last one-though not without effort-is painless.
i've been weight training for almost 2 months now.understand, i have been a stickman all my life,so this is entirely new to me. my body has responded well,and the physical results o' my labor are slowly taking shape.a pleasant surprise has been the mental well being that seems to progress alongside the defining of my muscles.
my trainer is very encouraging. his verbal support is confident and cool-no machoisms at all. for some reason,his use of the word 'grow' has had a dramatic effect on me. it seeped into my subconsciousness with the visual manifestation of my muscles getting bigger ever so slightly.
now i look at the things i do in my world as well as the people i associate with-do they help me grow?
there will always be pain,and effort,and sacrifice.
"grow,john"
there will also be knowledge,understanding,and love.
"grow..."
(from a previous blog)
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today in the yard...

"i'm not finished." willpower takes over...
"good! that's what i like to hear!" the man says-i have four reps left.
"uh,huh"one down.
"push,john" two more.i'm determined to control my shaking.
"c'mon now" one left.my outer tricep feels like it is burning through my arm.
"one more. let's go john...grow" the last one-though not without effort-is painless.
i've been weight training for almost 2 months now.understand, i have been a stickman all my life,so this is entirely new to me. my body has responded well,and the physical results o' my labor are slowly taking shape.a pleasant surprise has been the mental well being that seems to progress alongside the defining of my muscles.
my trainer is very encouraging. his verbal support is confident and cool-no machoisms at all. for some reason,his use of the word 'grow' has had a dramatic effect on me. it seeped into my subconsciousness with the visual manifestation of my muscles getting bigger ever so slightly.
now i look at the things i do in my world as well as the people i associate with-do they help me grow?
there will always be pain,and effort,and sacrifice.
"grow,john"
there will also be knowledge,understanding,and love.
"grow..."
(from a previous blog)
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today in the yard...



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I do believe that there is someone or someones out there for everyone...but I also believe that sometimes some people are meant to be alone for one lifetime, or two or three, or whatever...sometimes I think our other halves are born too late or too early and both halfs end up being alone for that lifetime...just to eventually meet agian some other lifetime...
Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic...I guess I want to believe that everyone who is looking will eventually find....I mean my aunt didn't find her true love until she was 47...then she got married and is so happy...I guess I just want it to be true for everyone...