thegoatlord

day started off as any other, so wont go into that at all.. ill just skip to whats on my mind, at the moment..

my older sister, her two kids, and some goofy lookin kid came over to pick up a crib for my oldest neice. well, shes 18 (i think) and already having a kid.. its weird as hell knowing ill be a great uncle around when im 21.. thats just fubar.. just goes to show, i was right.. america is in another baby boom. and thats not good. just leaves more for the kids to grow up thinking theyll be something spectacular, only to be disappointed that only a few can attain the care free life.

im relatively aware that ill prolly never reach the light at the end of the proverbial tunnel, when it comes to my life. i just would prefer not to turn out like my parents. becoming an alcoholic, working away for all of my life, not having anything to show for it etc. im willing to do whatever it takes for me to make my life not turn to shit, but the thing is i dont know how to come about that. conventional methods of 'getting an education, getting a nice job' are all but dried up, it seems. im not doubting that if i went to school that i couldnt get a nice job, but it wouldnt be how id want it. i dont know where im going with all of this, but i do know this..

no kids for me, for a long ass time from now..