I'm only updating this because it's been too long to have the same old shit up here. So, I've been busting my hump handing out demo CD's and calling people back and it's finally beginning to pay off! I have a gig this Saturday at the Abbey Lounge and then I'm playing the Midway on the 28th of this month.
The funny thing is that I've booked gigs for myself in two different cities before but for some reason in Boston, I get really nervous about the whole thing. Maybe it's because it's a much bigger scene than I've ever worked in before, or maybe it's because I'm getting older and I feel like I'm running out of time to get this whole music career thing rolling. Either way, to get these first two gigs means a ton to me, for a number of reasons. When I was in high school and gigging in Toledo, OH, it was a no brainer that clubs would book a kid, literally a kid that could play and sing and write, but now that I'm 23, I have have no more of that novelty going for me, so like, I really have to rely on actual talent to get me through. Hence the nervousness. I've never been in a pond so big where my age no longer mattered and there exists so much other talent to compete against. And I hate the competition aspect of the whole thing. But unfortunately, everybody is competing to play. So I guess that means that I have to compete as well. Ugh. Anyway, I really believe in my music and I really believe that I can do great things with it, but as any artist would know, I have my doubts and reservations about my own work, so to have these gigs is a wonderful validation of what I've been working on. I just hope they go well. I know it's a long, hard road to where I'm going, but I want it more than anything I've ever known and I think I'm willing to push as hard as I need to to get there. So there.
PS- Why does my new MySpace acount tell me that there are over 46 MILLION people in my "network"? Isn't 46 million a little bit excessive?! I mean, what the hell does that even mean? Fuck.
The funny thing is that I've booked gigs for myself in two different cities before but for some reason in Boston, I get really nervous about the whole thing. Maybe it's because it's a much bigger scene than I've ever worked in before, or maybe it's because I'm getting older and I feel like I'm running out of time to get this whole music career thing rolling. Either way, to get these first two gigs means a ton to me, for a number of reasons. When I was in high school and gigging in Toledo, OH, it was a no brainer that clubs would book a kid, literally a kid that could play and sing and write, but now that I'm 23, I have have no more of that novelty going for me, so like, I really have to rely on actual talent to get me through. Hence the nervousness. I've never been in a pond so big where my age no longer mattered and there exists so much other talent to compete against. And I hate the competition aspect of the whole thing. But unfortunately, everybody is competing to play. So I guess that means that I have to compete as well. Ugh. Anyway, I really believe in my music and I really believe that I can do great things with it, but as any artist would know, I have my doubts and reservations about my own work, so to have these gigs is a wonderful validation of what I've been working on. I just hope they go well. I know it's a long, hard road to where I'm going, but I want it more than anything I've ever known and I think I'm willing to push as hard as I need to to get there. So there.
PS- Why does my new MySpace acount tell me that there are over 46 MILLION people in my "network"? Isn't 46 million a little bit excessive?! I mean, what the hell does that even mean? Fuck.
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fatality:
I get so sick and tired of seeing the same journal entry forever, too
fatality:
No, just talking about my own journal entry and your "I'm only updating this because it's been too long to have the same old shit up here"