thefreddy

I can't elaborate at the moment-maybe later. But all I have to say is: why is life such a messy pile of shit that I have to sort through without any protective gear? I mean, I figured once I came to an Age of Reason that that was life and I have to deal with it, but FUCK IS IT A MOTHERFUCKA!!!!

So yeah, it looks like I didn't get the job as a train operator. I was suppose to hear back from the people last week, which never happen. Still stuck at this bullshit-ass job, probably for the rest of my life. On top of that, my roommate is hanging with this broad who-without getting into much detail-ain't good for him. Plus his father is between life and death and, even with surgery, he's got a 50/50 chance of surviving. Our other roommate is MIA and all the bills are in his name, and he hasn't paid them in a few months and just...shit is going down.

Usually, I'm positive about these things and I shouldn't get bogged down in the pessimism, but I can't help it. It's a like a cheap lay: feels good for a moment, but you'll regret it afterwards. I'm balls deep in it now. Just let me enjoy for a second, please?

Got nothing else. Sorry for lame emo-ness. I swear I'll be all rainbows, lucky charms, and unicorns next time.

And sorry for my lack of activity. I've been...doing shit.