You ever one of those days where you are drained of motivation? That no matter what you do, there's this tiny voice in your head whispering that it's pointless and you should just hang it up, sit on your ass and watch TMZ til the day you die?
Yeah. I'm having one of those days.
With quadruple emphasis on the dayS. It's been a while since I'm feeling this. And I know this will lead to a spiritual and emotional suicide. However, this thing, this feeling, has blanketed all other feelings and desires and I can't help it but to think "What's the use?"
I need to quit lying to you all when I said I had these feelings for a couple of days. It's been YEARS. I had this for as long as I can remember. I've managed to overcome it with varying success, but it always comes back with a vengeance. Everyday is a battle to keep this fucker in check. It's a disease that needs constant treatment or it'll takeover my body, mind, and spirit.
I know I can take it on. I'm just venting and being frustrated. Why can't it just go away and let me be?
Yeah. I'm having one of those days.
With quadruple emphasis on the dayS. It's been a while since I'm feeling this. And I know this will lead to a spiritual and emotional suicide. However, this thing, this feeling, has blanketed all other feelings and desires and I can't help it but to think "What's the use?"
I need to quit lying to you all when I said I had these feelings for a couple of days. It's been YEARS. I had this for as long as I can remember. I've managed to overcome it with varying success, but it always comes back with a vengeance. Everyday is a battle to keep this fucker in check. It's a disease that needs constant treatment or it'll takeover my body, mind, and spirit.
I know I can take it on. I'm just venting and being frustrated. Why can't it just go away and let me be?
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But yes, I figured out the abbreviation for Valentine's Day.
**blonde moment**
I need massages!