Jesus Fuck Nuts, it's been 9 days since I've updated!?!?!
Well, nothing much has changed. Still haven't heard anything on my car, I still don't have interwebz at the crib, and I'm still jobless. I'll be lying if I said I'm in a good disposition right now.
Right now I'm at my folks' place in Crete, IL which is way the fuck down there. I mean, way down. Since I don't have a car, my stepdad drove me and my half-brother here. It's a quiet area with wide lawns, tall pine trees and deer running the fuck everywhere.
I love my folks and my family, but--and I know this is gonna sound bad--but I don't want to be around them. You every try build your life on your own terms but no matter how much you try, there's always that thing that reminds you of your old self? That's my family. I love them to death, but they remind me a that little timid boy and that's afraid to say anything. Everytime I come here I feel like I'm ten-years old again. Like I can't incapable of taking care of myself when I'm over here. And I when I express these feelings I get met with exaperation and crying fits from my mom, saying how could I say such things. I know there's a happy medium to be attain, I just haven't figured out what that is.
Anyway, I'm done blabbing about emo shit. I just had to get that out of my chest.
Hey look! A Kanye West song that I don't hate.
Well, nothing much has changed. Still haven't heard anything on my car, I still don't have interwebz at the crib, and I'm still jobless. I'll be lying if I said I'm in a good disposition right now.
Right now I'm at my folks' place in Crete, IL which is way the fuck down there. I mean, way down. Since I don't have a car, my stepdad drove me and my half-brother here. It's a quiet area with wide lawns, tall pine trees and deer running the fuck everywhere.
I love my folks and my family, but--and I know this is gonna sound bad--but I don't want to be around them. You every try build your life on your own terms but no matter how much you try, there's always that thing that reminds you of your old self? That's my family. I love them to death, but they remind me a that little timid boy and that's afraid to say anything. Everytime I come here I feel like I'm ten-years old again. Like I can't incapable of taking care of myself when I'm over here. And I when I express these feelings I get met with exaperation and crying fits from my mom, saying how could I say such things. I know there's a happy medium to be attain, I just haven't figured out what that is.
Anyway, I'm done blabbing about emo shit. I just had to get that out of my chest.
Hey look! A Kanye West song that I don't hate.
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In a way, this is "the big one". In a way, it's just another day. Anyway, have fun.