thefreak

Hey, kids. It's your final update (for now) from Your Friendly Neighborhood Freak.

I'm just not in a good way right now. I'm having a crisis of self. A lot of things have happened as of late to make me start questioning who I am and what I mean to people.

I don't know what I want and need of people, and I don't know what people want and need of me. Whenever I try to make things better, I never know if they're truly better or they make things worse, and just get people more upset @me. I feel like it's becoming the latter lately more often than not. I try to do what's right. While I don't always go about it the right way, I can't be faulted for my intentions. I've done my best to keep a positive face, smile, laugh, be a good friend. But everything's just building up to a head and I don't know how best to deal w/it right now.

For anyone I've upset, or annoyed (and you know who you are)...I apologize from the bottom of my heart. Please don't hold it against me. I care about each and everyone one of you, and just want to be the best Freak I can be.

I just need to disappear for a while. Could be two weeks, could be 3 days. I'm sorry to just take the ball and go home on this, as it were. But I just don't know what else to do. I need to try and figure out who I am as a person. That way, I can give people what they need w/o overstaying my welcome. I'm sick of hating myself, I'm sick of failing, and I'm sick of feeling like I'm going nowhere. Please don't be upset w/me on this. It's just something that's been a long time coming, and now I'm @the point where I can't ignore things wrong in my life.

I may end up going anon. In the meantime, I will leave this blog up. Feel free to relay this as you wish. Just know that you can't keep a good Freak down. I will be back. I promise you that.

Take care of yourselves, hmm?

Stay tuned...

-TM