For each good thing I try to do I end up doing five bad. *sigh*
Every statement posted here (in general, all over SG) is to confirm to myself that I am still around. How's that plot of Ghost in the Shell again? Bodies as human shells, the conscious being long reaching on the net or whatever it was they called it. Another *sigh* I hate confrontation; not human interconnectivity, I think that's very important. I cannot understand why people would rather name call than pause first to say "what?" or "what do you exactly mean?" Is it too much to ask that I'd be given the chance to explain myself (since words on a screen do not denote emotion these are full of self inflection, if you so care, oh, and that wasn't meant as sarcasm). I have opinions that obviously haven't been that popular. It's funny; I've read thoughts people have had through the threads and if I disagreed with them I'd question it (trying to ask such without malice in my typed words) or ignore it. I don't undertand attacking a person. I used to come here and feel welcome and a sort of comraderie.
I was wrong. Yeah, yeah, there's only a few that have struck me personally, particularly where I didn't want to get kicked at the moment. Is it their fault? Shouldn't I have a thicker skin? Why? That's why I've left the everyday world for this forum. I liked it here. Now I'm afraid anything I say will be misconstrued and instead of being allowed to calmly talk it out it will become a virtual he said/he said sort of argument that doesn't get anyone anywhere.
And my comments were generalities. My problem was the words, their object of definement, not the person who said them. Yet the rebuttal my words received was an attack upon my person. Now I'm afraid to converse in this community for others may do the same, attack me, not my words. Heh, I took a debate class around some election or another. Okay, being completely removed from party affiliation, Clinton was one smooth talker. Dole wasn't. What hurt Dole even more? His words only attacked Clinton for the type of person he was. They strayed from the issues he should have been addressing. He was mean, in schoolyard terms.
So I ask myself, am I Dole? Were my words attacking someone? But then I say, No!, I was attacking an idea. I'll admit that; I'd like to say I was discussing it but, in fact, I was attacking it. But not the person.
I'm not retarded though others say so. I'm not against any one else's ideas unless they bring uneeded distress upon a person. At the moment I seem to be the only one put upon. That makes it unfair.
All over cell phones.
It pains me for I cannot frequent the threads I'd like anymore, fear of being attacked personally and not allowed to discuss the point. I've never called anyone retarded nor have I called anyone's tirade nonsensical. I'm public on Suicide Girls so I can meet people through this medium, share thoughts and ideas, and by God, help them (in particular threads). Now I cannot do that. My words weren't directed at anyone. Just an idea. Yet I'm retarded. Yet my words hold no merit. And the worst part is, the other parties involved (att: this is just personal speculation that may be eroneous) if they can even be said to be involved since I cannot approach the forums I once did-- the parties involved don't care a thing about what they said. It was just a few comments from them. No water off their back. But to me, me the person they were directed against, I do care. I had found a place I felt I was amongst friends, granted I haven't been made to feel like this since becoming a member, this is the first time. So will this be the norm from now on? There have been several times that my words weren't true, Jesus, times I was so wrong I was surprised someone didn't tell me how retarded I was. Yet they didn't. They merely corrected my advice which was cool. A learning experience. But I don't like confrontation and argument and that is all I see here now. The question I ask myself is Me or them. Who is in the wrong? I wasn't being rude to anyone else. Just an idea. I was open to the idea that people would disagree. It wouldn't have been the first time. Though I've never been called retarded or told that my words were stupid before. Isn't that wrong?
A person isn't supposed to be afraid to log on here. I must admit after reading those statements and seeing I had comments in my journal I believed the attack "came home" so to speak. I'm afraid to be here now. So I vent in my journal.
I'll decide later if I can stay around or not.
Whatever the case, I thank the members who have made this time enjoyable.
Every statement posted here (in general, all over SG) is to confirm to myself that I am still around. How's that plot of Ghost in the Shell again? Bodies as human shells, the conscious being long reaching on the net or whatever it was they called it. Another *sigh* I hate confrontation; not human interconnectivity, I think that's very important. I cannot understand why people would rather name call than pause first to say "what?" or "what do you exactly mean?" Is it too much to ask that I'd be given the chance to explain myself (since words on a screen do not denote emotion these are full of self inflection, if you so care, oh, and that wasn't meant as sarcasm). I have opinions that obviously haven't been that popular. It's funny; I've read thoughts people have had through the threads and if I disagreed with them I'd question it (trying to ask such without malice in my typed words) or ignore it. I don't undertand attacking a person. I used to come here and feel welcome and a sort of comraderie.
I was wrong. Yeah, yeah, there's only a few that have struck me personally, particularly where I didn't want to get kicked at the moment. Is it their fault? Shouldn't I have a thicker skin? Why? That's why I've left the everyday world for this forum. I liked it here. Now I'm afraid anything I say will be misconstrued and instead of being allowed to calmly talk it out it will become a virtual he said/he said sort of argument that doesn't get anyone anywhere.
And my comments were generalities. My problem was the words, their object of definement, not the person who said them. Yet the rebuttal my words received was an attack upon my person. Now I'm afraid to converse in this community for others may do the same, attack me, not my words. Heh, I took a debate class around some election or another. Okay, being completely removed from party affiliation, Clinton was one smooth talker. Dole wasn't. What hurt Dole even more? His words only attacked Clinton for the type of person he was. They strayed from the issues he should have been addressing. He was mean, in schoolyard terms.
So I ask myself, am I Dole? Were my words attacking someone? But then I say, No!, I was attacking an idea. I'll admit that; I'd like to say I was discussing it but, in fact, I was attacking it. But not the person.
I'm not retarded though others say so. I'm not against any one else's ideas unless they bring uneeded distress upon a person. At the moment I seem to be the only one put upon. That makes it unfair.
All over cell phones.
It pains me for I cannot frequent the threads I'd like anymore, fear of being attacked personally and not allowed to discuss the point. I've never called anyone retarded nor have I called anyone's tirade nonsensical. I'm public on Suicide Girls so I can meet people through this medium, share thoughts and ideas, and by God, help them (in particular threads). Now I cannot do that. My words weren't directed at anyone. Just an idea. Yet I'm retarded. Yet my words hold no merit. And the worst part is, the other parties involved (att: this is just personal speculation that may be eroneous) if they can even be said to be involved since I cannot approach the forums I once did-- the parties involved don't care a thing about what they said. It was just a few comments from them. No water off their back. But to me, me the person they were directed against, I do care. I had found a place I felt I was amongst friends, granted I haven't been made to feel like this since becoming a member, this is the first time. So will this be the norm from now on? There have been several times that my words weren't true, Jesus, times I was so wrong I was surprised someone didn't tell me how retarded I was. Yet they didn't. They merely corrected my advice which was cool. A learning experience. But I don't like confrontation and argument and that is all I see here now. The question I ask myself is Me or them. Who is in the wrong? I wasn't being rude to anyone else. Just an idea. I was open to the idea that people would disagree. It wouldn't have been the first time. Though I've never been called retarded or told that my words were stupid before. Isn't that wrong?
A person isn't supposed to be afraid to log on here. I must admit after reading those statements and seeing I had comments in my journal I believed the attack "came home" so to speak. I'm afraid to be here now. So I vent in my journal.
I'll decide later if I can stay around or not.
Whatever the case, I thank the members who have made this time enjoyable.