This is super random but
I was telling a friend why I absolutely love a song by a Chicopee, Massachusetts band called The Acacia Strain. The song is called JFC (Jesus Fucking Christ) and it is hands down one of my most favourite songs ever. I will use this song as an example as to why heavy music is so important to me.
It's not so much the lyrics in this song, it's the pure visceral delivery of lyrical hate and bile the vocalist Vicent Bennett barks. It never fails to make me want to lash out at anything and everything in my way. The above video is a perfect example of what I mean. Before the song starts he tells the crowd "I'm a pretty negative person. The human race has no hope, we are a failure, no one is exempt, we are all at fault, we are all the end of the world. Jesus Fucking Christ, I AM THE END OF THE WORLD". In another video, he tells the crowd "Nothing but hatred and distaste for the whole human fucking race".
It's not so much his standpoint on humanity, but it's the anger that attracts me. The venting of so much negativity, I'm not 100% sure why it's so appealing, but it is.
I've spoken with the singer of an Orange Country, California band called Bleeding Through on many occasions, he is an absolutely awesome guy, always recognised me, always had a smile on his face and always thanked me for coming to see them live, but while on stage a 5"4 man have never stood so tall. The imposing vocals and stage presence would make most think twice before crossing him, little do most people know but off stage he is a ball of childish jokes and is constantly talking to fans and thanking them for being there and supporting the band.
I have strong Aspergers traits, I also have slow cognitive processing problems and more than likely other learning difficulties. I often get confused at the drop of a hat, I can't cope with too much stimuli at once and I can't be given more line a line of information without needing it repeated several times, in the case of numbers, never give me more than 4 to remember or I'll forget most of them instantly.
I try to live and cope with these things daily, I often slip away to go to the toilet just to catch a breather from everyone and everything. It's nothing personal, ever, if I had a problem with you, then I wouldn't be around you and wouldn't invite people places or to hang out, but sometimes I need a "me" moment because everything has just got too much for me.
Heavy music for me, whether it be Metal, Hardcore, Death, Black, Deathcore, Djent, Industrial or whatever helps me vent all the "square peg, round hole" moments I have. I don't dance in clubs even a quarter of what I used to, but it was a regular Friday / Saturday night that I would be carried off of the dance floor because I had over done it to a song I adored. I've always wished I could be a vocalist in a band, because be able to thrash out all the negativity, all the anxieties are what I need. I don't have much outlet for my anxieties and frustrations any more, probably why I've started going out to clubs a bit more since becoming single again.
I think it's possibly the base level that attracts me to the "violence" in the vocals, lyrics and music. It doesn't mean I want to do any of what some of the lyrics say... But on some level I think everyone wants to lash out, heavy music allows me to do that instead of chewing over these things over and over again in my head.
This probably sucks, but it's something I've been thinking about and thought I might put down.