theedward

okay so... things have been pretty boring as of late... nothing has happened... nothing is going on... Hallow's Eve was the most normal day i've ever had... more than my normal days... no one contacted me in anyway except my cousin... i didn't go anywhere... i stayed home and watched anime and played my guitar... no tv... though i wouldn't watch it anyway... i'm bored with all my games since i've done everything in all my games already... i've seen all my movies and watched all my anime... no internet... wow... there's like, nothing to do these days.. i don't know what to do... i even got on t... twitter... just to have something to occupy me... although since i have no internet. i get... tw... tweets i guess?... i get them by text... and they're like my only texts... i kid you not like about all of my texts are from mo fucken twitter... all of them... aside from that... i keep falling asleep.. like.. i keep passing out. man... i hate this.. i gotta work out or something. go running and stuff.. oh and then the band i was in [Wolf Rage] contacted me a few days ago... according to them.. i have to get my shit together... Wrong. these are the problems with that being said... 1. they asked me to join the band. it's not like i begged them to let me in and now i gotta give it my all to stay in ya know... 2. i put a lot of effort into the band. we needed things and i offered to buy those things so many times and they rejected it. i'm trying to help the band out and it's rejected. oh and i was suppose to put in 200 to help pay off the recording... the first time i had 200 at hand to help out... the second time i couldn't. why? cause i had to get my car running, pay off my registration fee which was like 500, get some new parts for my car [still need some], pay my insurance, pay for smog, pay my phone bill, help my mom with bills and of coarse money went to gas and at times food. this left me with less... in total i had less than 200 in the bank combined with what i had on me. they asked if i was going to put all of it in. i said NO! i've had nothing in the bank before and that just isn't good. i don't want to go through that again. so i told em why don't i put in 100 and we'll ask the guy if we could pay the next 100 another day.. the lead sighed and hung up on me.. so i thought... fine.. whatever... i gathered money from friends and my mom and i had the 200 now. i called and they said it was kool they took care of it. so alright. great. thanks for letting me know. so i say okay. see ya next practice.. about a month goes by.. hearing nothing from anyone. then the lead texts me saying we need to talk and that WE need to get our shit together and if i care about the music at all i'll make the time or some shit like that.. it annoys me that he is pretty much saying i need to get my shit together. i got it together. i know what i'm doing and i'm still doing it. don't tell me anything about My dream. so i'mma go get my stuff back from them. they're using a cable of mine and my bass pedal... and my high hats... they have my bass drum too... and my PA and my metronome... well... i'll probably go get that like... tomorrow or friday.. have some friends come with me just in case they decide to get crazy with me... and i'm telling them this band isn't for me... hasn't felt like it for a while now.. whelp... i'mma go drive and then vegetate... =[

toodles!
The Edward