thee_blacklisted

Ay yi yi. So I just returned from dinner and a talk, big talk, with Kristen, who I've been dating for 3 months now but no real sparks. She's real cute, smart, sensitive, cool, into great music and film and books and stuff -- but it just wasn't happening. All the right ingredients were there, and she REALLY likes me and my writing and etc., but it didn't really totally CLICK. Arghhhhh.

I kept waiting for chemistry to happen but the last month we got into a rut rather than having things get better... So I broke it off.

Besides, I want IT ALL, you know? I don't just want a warm body, or someone to show off to my friends. I want LOVE AND HAPPINESS, man -- if it is OK for me to quote All Green.

Now, I guess I'll get back back to 'dating' -- well, after some indeterminate amount of non-rebounding alone/ down time, anyway. I fucking hate dating though -- just seems so forced! Well it totally is forced, like that's why the pandas in the zoos so rarely get it on. Right?

All this stuff is both a lot easier and a lot more difficult clean/ sober. Part of me thinks, 'Dude! Now would be such a good time to get fucked up!' But I'm not about to throw my 8 years away... No way.

I have PLENTY to occupy my time in the upcoming month or so:
* SAD ROBOT label showcase at SXSW in Austin -- our first one!! -- split with Overcoat, Fri. March 14 at Club Deville. -- and 3 releases coming out in May!
* New issue of my 'zine YETI (that's it in the pic) finally comes back from the printer this week!
* Researching/ interviewing folks for the book about the making of 'Love In Vain'...

Now sure, I wouldn't mind being in love with a kick-ass chick ON TOP of all of this stuff, but I guess it just ain't supposed to happen right now -- anyway that's what I'll tell myself!