WARNING: RIDICULOUSLY LONG ENTRY AHEAD!
Man, it's been busy. I can't believe how involved I've suddenly become in my entries but it's doing great things in my non-virtual life. For one, I'm massively ego-centric, but by spouting all my self absorbed nonsense here I've become far more pleasant to be around. I listen more, I have no need to tell everyone every detail of my life coz I can do that here and so I do listen rather than wait for my turn to talk. It's lovely
Anyway, last few days have been a bit manic, two 21st birthdays, first week back at uni and the girl I'm in love with is in emotional turmoil. Where to start? How about sidestepping the big stuff and mentioning that i've just applied for a job as a runner at the BBC, it's bottom rung work but at least it's on the right ladder.
Nah, that's rubbish. Have only just sent the job application and don't even know if I've made the interview stage, that's really not worth mentiong so I should just let you guys in on the big issue.
But first I should mention my mates birthdays. It was my flatmate Hayley's on Wednesday and we had a wicked time. We went to a club I've been to so often I had worn out my membership card and got a replacement. How many people do you know that renew their membership to a club night? That's loyalty baby! Two years strong, DJ Dan we love you!
It was then my mate Jen's 21st on Friday and it was great because I went out with a load of people I don't usually get the opportunity to go out with. My mate Jordan got escorted out for doing guerilla wedgies - a new pissed activity where you give a mate a wedgie in a crowded club and then disappear into the see of bodies before your victim can see you and respond. My friend Ollie wasn't appreciating the waistband to nipple manoeuvre five times in a row without catching Jordan once. It was very funny for the rest of us though. It was also good to have a night out with my mate Miz. I spend a lot of days playing pool witht the guy, but I rarely get the opportunity to get pissed with the fucker. Last night I remembered why, he's a flipping lightweight. It was entertaining but I felt bad because a girl he really likes was there and I had to sneak him out before she saw him in such a paralectic state. The guy is cool, but his pulling technique is atrocious, he spends half the night staring and then conversation aludes him so he goes off and gets drunk with the guys so he doesn't have to face her. I would say he was shy but he's one of the most sociable people I know, it's just with women he likes he gets the fear of rejection. I'm more of "if nine say no then the tenth is bound to say yes" type of person with a fuck-it take risks or die attitude that hard as I try he won't subscribe to. I love him though and I hope he gets somewhere because the girl seemed really sweet, and there aren't that many girls shorter than Miz so he really should go for it.
Right, I really should discuss the Caroline situation. It's important. But then I should also mention it's been my first week back at uni and it's been really great getting back into the swing of things. Ok, so I've only been to one seminar and no lectures but goddamnit, friends come first! The Open Mic is all set for Tuesday at 8 and I can't wait, should be well cool.
Ok, to Caroline. Basically her and her guy have been a bit rocky for a while. I haven't wanted to get involved or anything because I'd get my hopes up and then get destroyed by them suddenly getting engaged or something. However, things blew up recently. Without going into detail a drunk mistake was made by Caroline and now she doesn't know if they are going to stay together or not, but she now realises that she truly loves him and doesn't want to lose him. Truly brilliant news
I didn't and still don't want to be anything but a casual friend to her while there is still a boyfriend on the scene, but she'sreally messed herself up to the poit where she's not eating or sleeping and she's even considering seeking professional help. What do you do when you she the woman you love like that? You go and be there for her 1000% The thing is I can't do that. I can be supportive, but do I pull out all the stops to get them back together? I want her to be happy and all she wants at the moment is her boyfriend, but he's gone away for the weekend to think about things and they're going to talk on Sunday. Really I need to leave them to it, but at the moment she's on her own and I can't bare to see her this way. I went round yesterday and just listened, offered her advice as best I could and just buried her in hugs. I got her to eat something and watch a movie to get her mind off things for two hours which was great and we really bonded, but I can't be her best friend through this. Her boyfriend is a great great guy and I think he'll make the right choice and stick by her, but at the end of the day he's in the position I want to be at and they'll always be a little envy tainting my view of the guy. I just want to show her that when she's in a crisis I'm there for her and always will be, I want to show her that I can be relied on, but this is really tough. I was hoping that in a few months they would have a mutual split and remain friends so I wouldn't have to deal with this situation. Oh man, why can't you choose who you fall in love with? I have no idea what the outcome of this will be and I don't know which one I'd prefer, but to be honest I'm going to be gutted either way. This sucks, but that's life for you.
I didn't want to end this entry on a down note, especially as you've had to take some seriously long time out to read the fucker, so I'm going to leave you with the only poem I've written that I really like. It's called Ambition.
I once thought that I could fly
So I tried it and had to die.
Yes, that's right, I am dead
But no one said
I could not fly.
Goodnight folks, we're all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Have sweet dreams and maybe one day they'll come true.
I'll be seeing yer
T
Man, it's been busy. I can't believe how involved I've suddenly become in my entries but it's doing great things in my non-virtual life. For one, I'm massively ego-centric, but by spouting all my self absorbed nonsense here I've become far more pleasant to be around. I listen more, I have no need to tell everyone every detail of my life coz I can do that here and so I do listen rather than wait for my turn to talk. It's lovely
Anyway, last few days have been a bit manic, two 21st birthdays, first week back at uni and the girl I'm in love with is in emotional turmoil. Where to start? How about sidestepping the big stuff and mentioning that i've just applied for a job as a runner at the BBC, it's bottom rung work but at least it's on the right ladder.
Nah, that's rubbish. Have only just sent the job application and don't even know if I've made the interview stage, that's really not worth mentiong so I should just let you guys in on the big issue.
But first I should mention my mates birthdays. It was my flatmate Hayley's on Wednesday and we had a wicked time. We went to a club I've been to so often I had worn out my membership card and got a replacement. How many people do you know that renew their membership to a club night? That's loyalty baby! Two years strong, DJ Dan we love you!
It was then my mate Jen's 21st on Friday and it was great because I went out with a load of people I don't usually get the opportunity to go out with. My mate Jordan got escorted out for doing guerilla wedgies - a new pissed activity where you give a mate a wedgie in a crowded club and then disappear into the see of bodies before your victim can see you and respond. My friend Ollie wasn't appreciating the waistband to nipple manoeuvre five times in a row without catching Jordan once. It was very funny for the rest of us though. It was also good to have a night out with my mate Miz. I spend a lot of days playing pool witht the guy, but I rarely get the opportunity to get pissed with the fucker. Last night I remembered why, he's a flipping lightweight. It was entertaining but I felt bad because a girl he really likes was there and I had to sneak him out before she saw him in such a paralectic state. The guy is cool, but his pulling technique is atrocious, he spends half the night staring and then conversation aludes him so he goes off and gets drunk with the guys so he doesn't have to face her. I would say he was shy but he's one of the most sociable people I know, it's just with women he likes he gets the fear of rejection. I'm more of "if nine say no then the tenth is bound to say yes" type of person with a fuck-it take risks or die attitude that hard as I try he won't subscribe to. I love him though and I hope he gets somewhere because the girl seemed really sweet, and there aren't that many girls shorter than Miz so he really should go for it.
Right, I really should discuss the Caroline situation. It's important. But then I should also mention it's been my first week back at uni and it's been really great getting back into the swing of things. Ok, so I've only been to one seminar and no lectures but goddamnit, friends come first! The Open Mic is all set for Tuesday at 8 and I can't wait, should be well cool.
Ok, to Caroline. Basically her and her guy have been a bit rocky for a while. I haven't wanted to get involved or anything because I'd get my hopes up and then get destroyed by them suddenly getting engaged or something. However, things blew up recently. Without going into detail a drunk mistake was made by Caroline and now she doesn't know if they are going to stay together or not, but she now realises that she truly loves him and doesn't want to lose him. Truly brilliant news
I didn't and still don't want to be anything but a casual friend to her while there is still a boyfriend on the scene, but she'sreally messed herself up to the poit where she's not eating or sleeping and she's even considering seeking professional help. What do you do when you she the woman you love like that? You go and be there for her 1000% The thing is I can't do that. I can be supportive, but do I pull out all the stops to get them back together? I want her to be happy and all she wants at the moment is her boyfriend, but he's gone away for the weekend to think about things and they're going to talk on Sunday. Really I need to leave them to it, but at the moment she's on her own and I can't bare to see her this way. I went round yesterday and just listened, offered her advice as best I could and just buried her in hugs. I got her to eat something and watch a movie to get her mind off things for two hours which was great and we really bonded, but I can't be her best friend through this. Her boyfriend is a great great guy and I think he'll make the right choice and stick by her, but at the end of the day he's in the position I want to be at and they'll always be a little envy tainting my view of the guy. I just want to show her that when she's in a crisis I'm there for her and always will be, I want to show her that I can be relied on, but this is really tough. I was hoping that in a few months they would have a mutual split and remain friends so I wouldn't have to deal with this situation. Oh man, why can't you choose who you fall in love with? I have no idea what the outcome of this will be and I don't know which one I'd prefer, but to be honest I'm going to be gutted either way. This sucks, but that's life for you.
I didn't want to end this entry on a down note, especially as you've had to take some seriously long time out to read the fucker, so I'm going to leave you with the only poem I've written that I really like. It's called Ambition.
I once thought that I could fly
So I tried it and had to die.
Yes, that's right, I am dead
But no one said
I could not fly.
Goodnight folks, we're all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars. Have sweet dreams and maybe one day they'll come true.
I'll be seeing yer
T