My life gets better and better. Found out yesterday that Ellie has already moved on and slept with my friend's flatmate: a girl called Joss. I feel fucking fabulous. Although deep down I know it shouldn't bother me. I don't want her back, she's confused and if she is gay then it would explain a lot, but we broke up on Tuesday night and she slept with Joss THE NEXT FUCKING DAY! It's just a little to close for comfort. That was either a crazy 24 hours in which she tried to get over us or there was feelings before broke up. I feel very crappy.
I'm not dwelling on it though. To be honest it's a good thing that I'm in love with someone else as it keeps me distracted. Keeping with the positive, she was round last night. She stayed for tea after uni and then got changed at mine to go out into town. We had an opportunity to discuss stuff. I told her about Ellie and she told me that the one problem she had with her boyfriend has now been resolved, so I'm guessing any opportunity for me is remaining zilch. But hey, I'm getting used to it. At least she really values the friendship as much as I do. She's always going to be part of my life and I know not to jeopardise it by saying something stupid.
I've got shitloads to do, but I thought I'd keep you updated.
T
I'm not dwelling on it though. To be honest it's a good thing that I'm in love with someone else as it keeps me distracted. Keeping with the positive, she was round last night. She stayed for tea after uni and then got changed at mine to go out into town. We had an opportunity to discuss stuff. I told her about Ellie and she told me that the one problem she had with her boyfriend has now been resolved, so I'm guessing any opportunity for me is remaining zilch. But hey, I'm getting used to it. At least she really values the friendship as much as I do. She's always going to be part of my life and I know not to jeopardise it by saying something stupid.
I've got shitloads to do, but I thought I'd keep you updated.
T
re the other girl - that is a shame but you know, things can only get better with her and you never know what might happen in the future. i guess it must just feel that things are coming to a head at the moment and it doesnt help when there's loads of work to do on the leadup to exams.
please try to stay positive - i know it's difficult and i've been having some problems of my own recently in that department so can certainly empathise. try to be selfish [i find that really hard to do] by focusing on what MAKES YOU happy, not what you think you need to make you happy i.e. a girlfriend.
you rock and when the time is right it will happen in the way that you have always wished it to. if not then you know that you have become the best person you can be and that can only be a good thing.
Phew, that was longer than i thought!
take it easy thagoras
milky
im glad to hear that you are happier tho
good on you for doing the whole compare thing - that takes guts... i'd love to be there but unfortunately it's my friend's 21st that night. i know you'll knock em out tho
hope you've had a great weekend. october and i have just finished demolishing a giant roast mmmm. i feel like i could sleep for weeks.
take care and good luck for tues!