thedarkocean

I spent 2 days in vegas having a blast, telling my roommate not to waste her time chasing her boyfriend who was acting like a baby. He's such a Radiohead fan party ruiner. I won a boatload on roulette and bj and just made some massive credit card payments. That felt sooo good! Then I got into my grey goose and all was lost-I was such a meloncholy sad drunk, sometimes happy, but mostly longing for my friend. So I spoke with my friend tonight, and even though it's just been a week, it feels like it's been months. I miss hanging out with her so much-my current friends just don't do it for me. I can't decide if I even want to see her-it would just be hard, wanting to feel a certain way but knowing I couldn't. I feel like I could fall in love so easily-it would bring me to tears to feel that way. That moment-it must be so pure! Knowing that quite possibly this is a girl you could die for. But then that's the high point-where do you go from there? What next?