thebeliever

Xmas vacation MAY kill me... I'm not using to having so much free time and good food... it's decadent, I tells ya.

Tonight I went out with a new friend for dinner, but I suspect she would like to be more than friends... but I don't think I'm interested in her that way, which makes some things awkward. I guess I'll have to talk to her about it soon, so as to make sure it's understood. But I would like to hang out with her sometimes, and I've met her friends and they're pretty cool. (There was one that seemed kind of interested in me... that I might be interested in too... and my new friend, let's call her J, ended up talking a little bit of shit about her tonight... I had a feeling that might happen....)

I feel I'm on dangerous ground here... See what happens when I step out of my apartment? Feelings get hurt, yo.

Gosh. Human beings... to say we're complex and needy is an understatement. I just want a cool chick to be my girl, is that so damn hard? Yep, I guess it is, for now. This makes me want to listen to Morrissey.

Ah well... Tomorrow I go to Berkeley to yell at the TV and root for the Cal Bears in some pub with my male friends. I prefer the company of females, but life sure can be simpler when hanging out with the dudes. Anyhow.... GO BEARS!