Life is great. Sobriety has brought me nothing but great blessings, one after another after another... It's taken a LOT of work, and a lot of dedication and time for me to accomplish everything I've done in the last couple months... but my goodness, I've done A LOT...
I've established my business, I've got the website up and running, got business cards, have worked a couple gigs (photography), been able to maintain my positive outlook and I'm spreading it around as much as possible EVERY DAY.
I've found my spirituality again... I know that whoever (It should be whoevers, as in plural, because there's definitely a lot of people watching my ass) is watching over me, has seriously saved me from me so many times... and since I've been on this path, since my life was almost taken from me... Everything has been so wonderful, because I've chosen to make it that way. I've accepted the negative, and moved past it, I've let it hit me head on, and taken it for what it is and worked it out instead of bottling it up and collapsing like before.
No more hiding. No more mask. No more shy insecure hidden Ryan. I'm here world, whether you're ready or not... but I know you are, because it's showing.
I love life, and all the blessings that I'm given. Everything I have is so wonderful, and I'm so lucky, and so thankful. For the very ground I walk on, to the sun above, everything is a blessing. I'm glad I see it... I'm glad I am stronger now, I'm glad I broke and was able to pick up the pieces... Because without that near-death experience I'd have found a way out and kept on digging deeper into my hole. I'd have continued to trap myself in my room, and hide from the world...
I'm not invincible, of this I remind myself every day. I'm not perfect, but I know today I'm sober. I have every intention of staying this path. My goal each day when I wake up is to be positive and let nothing stand in my way of that goal... Everything else is second to that. Positivity comes first and my sobriety stems from it, as do all the blessings which I've worked for since.
