Broke down today... Realized despite the last couple years of "maintaining control" of my drinking... I don't have it...
It's time for a change... again... I'm praying this time, I don't slip back into it. I sobered up for 5 months two years ago on my own, without meetings, without any real help other than a 12 day stint in a hospital...
This time, I've already begun reaching out for help. I'm scared of who I've become, and I don't like it one bit... This is when people stop taking advantage of me... because I'm clearing my head of this nonsense, and I'm going to do this. I am going to stay sober. I am. I need this and want it more than anything, for me. And for my number one little guy... my son.
I will beat this addiction, I will prosper. I WILL be happy with my life again. I deserve this, I want this, I will have it. I WILL NOT ACCEPT DEFEAT.
but not broken.
Oh... and I am getting the electronic cigarettes this month, quitting those too. I want to be healthy.
It's time for a change... again... I'm praying this time, I don't slip back into it. I sobered up for 5 months two years ago on my own, without meetings, without any real help other than a 12 day stint in a hospital...
This time, I've already begun reaching out for help. I'm scared of who I've become, and I don't like it one bit... This is when people stop taking advantage of me... because I'm clearing my head of this nonsense, and I'm going to do this. I am going to stay sober. I am. I need this and want it more than anything, for me. And for my number one little guy... my son.
I will beat this addiction, I will prosper. I WILL be happy with my life again. I deserve this, I want this, I will have it. I WILL NOT ACCEPT DEFEAT.
but not broken. Oh... and I am getting the electronic cigarettes this month, quitting those too. I want to be healthy.