the_matt79

Step One.

Some of you may have seen me post a picture of a calendar with May 4th circled on it, alluding to a development of sorts. I was cryptic in the posting, because I knew I would let it germinate in my head, that I would let people speculate if they wanted, and then finally I would do what I am doing right now, and thats write a blog about what I found out last week. I did my regular visit to the website about immigrating to Canada, clicked on the apply button just to see what it would do, and maybe get a feel for what I might be required to do. That is when I saw May 4th 2013, finally a firm date when I could apply for a Visa to our neighbors to the north.

You know what happens when you finally see a firm date for when you can apply for something you have wanted since the previous summer? You get excited and you get nervous, or excervous as I told a friend of mine. I got excited because I finally had something to count down to, a date to have something done by. I got nervous because shit just got real if you will. Seriously though, a big change that I want to take place in my life is finally going to begin.

Sometimes I have felt like I am spinning my wheels because I never knew when I could start, never knew when the new regulations would go into effect so that I could get step one out of the way. I havent been coy about my desire to move up there, and to give city life a try for once, and this also added to my spinning wheels feelings. Every so often I will get asked how my move to Canada is going, and I was the broken record saying how they werent accepting Visa applications from the unemployed as of yet, and that I didnt have a date that I knew of. I know of it now, and I can finally say that when asked.

Excitement and nerves, that will probably be the initial reaction as each step falls into place and I get closer to the end goal. I will put my all into that application and mail it off on or slightly before the 4th of May, I figure it will take a few days to get where it is going. Then it all comes down to processing, how long will it take them to look me over and decide whether I am worthy of entering their country and living there. I dont foresee a problem arising in that process, it will just come down to how long it takes. Hopefully it wont be an extended period of nerve wracking time, but who knows when it comes to these types of things.

Once I have that bit out of the way, then I can look for employment and living space, big pieces in the puzzle of course, and ones that may be difficult to come by, but ones that will be met and moved on from. This is a step by step process that I take seriously, hence my movements made in the right direction down here. Money wise I am getting things situated in the way I need them to be, and I will continue to work on that aspect of life. I know I will be able to come up with a budget that I can live on, one that will let me live like I want to live, so this is just another step to take.

I am not trying to oversimplify any of these steps, I know they will be difficult at times, but they are what needs to be done, so I will do them. Thats what it comes down to really, I have a goal, and to reach that goal I have to do things, so I will do them because I want to reach my goal. I have done that with college, and I have done that in my personal life, so I will do that with my future. I am not simplifying it, but it is a basic thing.

I know I will get there when I am supposed to get there, everything in me tells me that, and I dont enjoy lying to myself, so I see no reason that I am now. I also do well with things that I must accomplish, during this time of year. I dont know if it is Spring, or what exactly, but early May is good to me. Just two years ago I successfully defended my thesis on May 5th, something I was extremely nervous about, but turned out to be a fun and enjoyable experience. This too was something that I got excited and nervous about, but when it came down to it, I did it, because it was the next step in the goal I had for myself.

I do things at my own pace, and for once the Visa application has settled into my pace as well. I gave myself six months to a year to figure it out, from the time I decided I was going to move, and I made steps in my life to show myself I could do it, and the Canadian government decided to tack a few months on where I wanted to be at the six month point, and thats fine, it just shows me that I am doing things as I should do them, and that I am even more prepared this way.

I know that I dont have guaranteed success up there, but I dont have that anywhere, so I might as well try it out up there. I know that if worse comes to worse I can tuck my tail between my legs and come home again, but I dont think that will happen at all. There are too many things telling me that I have made the right decision for myself, so I choose to listen to them.

So here I am, making headway and preparing for step one. I am excited. I am nervous. I am moving right along, just as I should be.