the_matt79

The randomness of now.

I havent been able to think of anything that would fill up a whole post, or what I imagine a postings length should be. Because of this, I have decided to touch on some random things I think about lately, or feel should be addressed, or just want to prattle on about. Putting all of these together should then meet my won mental requirements of what a blog posting should be.

I probably should warn you that there is a decent chance that I will go off on tangents that I didnt previously see would be there, and because of this, the length of this posting could be longer than I thought it would be, but now you get the feel of how fun it is to know me.


BATMAN

December 4th saw the arrival of The Dark Knight Rises on blu ray and DVD, so of course I had pre-ordered it long before this, as I dont mess around when it comes to Batman. I decided to make it Batman Day, and watch the Nolan trilogy, which is one of the smartest decisions I have made all year, because Batman. As I made my way through Batman Begins, and remembered what it was like going to the midnight premiere of it, and reveled in just how good it still is, I decided that I will make December 4th Batman Day for the rest of my life, because Batman.

I thought to myself about how I better have an understanding partner when it comes to this, but I figure that if she doesnt like Batman then I can maybe play up the eye candy aspect of Christian Bale. I was also thinking that if it is already a tradition, then there is less chance of saying no to it all, and since I am bullheaded like that, it should work.

So what will Batman Day be? I figure it will be a watching of the Nolan Trilogy for sure, but then the Burton Batman films can be added as well, but never ever ever ever ever ever ever the Schumacher films. There can be additions of the animated shows, reading of comics, playing of video games, Batman cupcakes, things of this nature. December 4th is also perfect because I can be under my Batman quilt that I commissioned mom to make for me.

Granted, there is a good chance that I will feel the want and desire to watch Batman films or participate in Batman related activities at other times of the year, and thats okay, because Batman.

READING

One of these years I will hit my goal of reading 52 books within that time frame. I want that one book a week average, but cant seem to hit it. This past summer I really saw the speed slow down, and I guess maybe mentally I am geared to want to go outside and do things in that kind of weather, even if I am not physically geared to do that.

I always pick up speed in the fall and winter, but I suppose it also depends on the kinds of books I am reading. There are books that just grab hold of me and wont let go. There are books that take me a bit to get into a rhythm with, but once I do, it is off to the races. Then there are the books that I want to read, want to enjoy, but just cannot get into a rhythm at all with. These are the books that bring down my average.

It isnt that these books are poorly written, or that they dont have interesting subject material, they just dont spring forth in my mind. I have a different way of thinking about things, a different way of finding answers, or maybe just a different path of logic in a sense, and maybe that is why these books dont find me attacking them like others do. I know that I will probably never find myself with a years worth of books that will pop up and let me achieve this goal easily, nor will I find myself with a years worth of books that will slow me way down. No, some year I will find a happy medium of these books and I will hit my goal, it just wont be this year.

CHANGE OF ATTITUDE

Towards the end of November I realized that I needed to get my mind right again. I think having a good chunk of days off from work helped as well, and getting out and doing some hunting with dad didnt hurt either. I found myself dwelling on the negative stuff, more than the positive, and I do hate when that happens, especially when I have no real reason to do so.

What I mean is, the negatives in my life are really trivial things, and the positives far out weigh them, but I give them power over me, power that they do not rightly deserve to have. But thats how it goes, doesnt it? You get that one bad thing here, and it glares at you, then you get that bad thing over there, and it gangs up with the first one and tries to block from view the positive things that are there as well. I think this happens far to often, and I am slowly learning to fix this in my life, but it doesnt happen easily.

I was looking at the new year that is fast approaching, and I saw how that is a time for renewal of sorts, but then I figured why wait for that, December is a new month, and it might as well be what I embrace as a time of getting back on track. Of course I then started thinking of how time is arbitrary and that really I should be able to do this at any time. A new year, a new month, a new week, a new day, a new hour. and so on. All of these periods of time are when we can get back on track, when we can start over, if you will.

You see, it all comes down to pausing, maybe taking a step back, but giving yourself that piece of time to catch your breath, to actually look at the situation and see what is going on. This is something I will be reminding myself of, because it really does work. I couple this with writing in a journal, and find myself with clearer thoughts and a bigger smile, and that is really what we should have in our lives.

I know not everyday can be happy go lucky, but I know that they also dont have to be down in the dumps. I know how to take a step back, to catch my breath, and to get back to what I was and should be doing.

I am a work in progress, but I like the work I have done to get where I am. Not everything is perfect in my world, and it never will be, but if I can have the good out weighing the bad, well, I will take that any damn day.