All The Sap!!!
From time to time my mind gets into what I call good head space, things make sense, thoughts are clear, my perspective comes around, and realizations are made. I got into this space again tonight, or last night, or the other day, depending on when you read this of course. Once I arrived, some things made themselves apparent to me, and those things caused me to realize I should put them out in the world.
I am coming across things in my life that require me to focus on, some need a sharper focus than what I have given them before, and others need focus that I have neglected to give them until now. I know this will be a process, but I know that it will ultimately be what leads me to happiness. Happiness is not something that eludes me, and I am rather happy as of now, but the overall picture of happiness is what I am moving towards. The focus I put forth will allow me to find what holds relevance in my life, what should take precedence, and what I require to move toward my dreams, toward the future I want and deserve to have.
I thought about this focus, and the work that will come with it, and I knew that it was what needed to be done, and so it is what will be done. At the same time I allowed myself to realize that no matter how much work is still required of me, it doesnt mean I cant be happy at the same time. These things need not be exclusive of one another, it is perfectly acceptable to be working on aspects of my life, working hard, pushing forth, and still be happy. Hell, working on these things should increase my happiness anyways, as I get myself lined up to pursue dreams I have set on the back burner for years now.
I have had various things in my life that I put off, that I push back, with the thoughts that I have to have this in order to do that, and that in order to do this, but now I know that I can work on multiple things as I go for what I want. For the longest time getting things in order seemed to be the natural progression of things, but thats not how life is. Life is a series of events, one takes us left, one spins us around, and neither of these is wrong, and at the same time, they might not be right, but thats life, and that will always be life. So the question came up, how do I expect to ever have everything in order, how do I expect to get things sorted so that I can pursue something I want, if life isnt going to play by the same rules? Well I cant, I have to just move forward, now, while I can afford to and when the only one it will really affect is me.
So lets see, that means that I am allowed to work on things and be happy at the same time, and also pursue dreams even though I am working on other things? That seem right to you? Seems right to me!
Once I let this information sink in, I realized why I would be able to do things like this. I have an amazing support system. The people in my life are some of the most supporting and encouraging people you will ever meet. These are people that came into my life by being there from the get go, and these are people that I have met along the way, but they all have something in common. They believe in me, and in turn, I believe in them as well. I will back these people because I know they deserve it, I know they are worthy of all my support and encouragement, and I know this, because they give it to me, sometimes I dont think they even know they are doing it, but they do!
Every person that comes into our lives affects it in some way, hopefully they will do so in a positive manner, and those are the people to keep around, those are the people to invite to stay, to share your world with, to trust. The negative people will come and go, let them. These people are there to teach us lessons, and to show us how not to act in regards to the world around us. Dont be an asshat, that stuff will come back to you ten fold if you do. It really does come down to what Paul said in that famous Beatles tune, In the end the love you take is equal to the love you make. This is true on many levels, but first and foremost it shows you to put out there what you want to see given to you. If you are going to take a lot of love, you better be prepared to make a lot of it too. Dont expect things to magically show up for you if you are an angry spiteful person.
That is why I give my all for those I care about, and I see it come right back to me, and it feels pretty damned good! Believe in what you want, but I know I am blessed by something somewhere for the people that have come into my life, that have stuck around, that have taught me, that have supported me, that have loved me. There is something out there looking over me and because I choose to respect it, it leads me in the right direction, helps me find the people I need in my life, the people that will be there for me, and in turn the people that will need me, and the people I will be there for. It is my pleasure to be there for them, they are amazing people, and I am glad that they think I am someone they can trust, that they can vent too, that they can seek out for advice. I have a truly awesome role in this world, and I take it seriously.
I know that no matter how deep a hole I find myself in, if I cant get out on my own, these people will be there to help me out. They wont ask questions, they wont point accusing fingers, they wont tell me they told me so, they will just be there, as I am for them. Knowledge of this type is what can take some of the fear out of things, things like moving to another country.
So, you can see why I am a happy person, even though I know there is plenty of work to be done.
You can see why I am happy, even though I dont know how the journey is going to go.
The last realization I had was that I should thank these people, and tell them what they mean to me. I should be doing this on an individual basis, but I want to put something out there that lasts, and so I shall.
Thank you for your friendship, for your guidance, for your support. Youve all helped me become who I am, and I am eternally grateful to you for that. Youve all taught me things that I needed to know, things that got me to this point in my life. Youve all given me perspective on things that seemed so far out of my grasp. Youve seen me at my lows, and youve seen me at my highs, and your view of me never changed, you knew that neither fully defined me, and accepted all of me. Weve got a long way to go, and I know you will be coming along with me for the ride, as I will be with you!
Thank you, and I love you.
From time to time my mind gets into what I call good head space, things make sense, thoughts are clear, my perspective comes around, and realizations are made. I got into this space again tonight, or last night, or the other day, depending on when you read this of course. Once I arrived, some things made themselves apparent to me, and those things caused me to realize I should put them out in the world.
I am coming across things in my life that require me to focus on, some need a sharper focus than what I have given them before, and others need focus that I have neglected to give them until now. I know this will be a process, but I know that it will ultimately be what leads me to happiness. Happiness is not something that eludes me, and I am rather happy as of now, but the overall picture of happiness is what I am moving towards. The focus I put forth will allow me to find what holds relevance in my life, what should take precedence, and what I require to move toward my dreams, toward the future I want and deserve to have.
I thought about this focus, and the work that will come with it, and I knew that it was what needed to be done, and so it is what will be done. At the same time I allowed myself to realize that no matter how much work is still required of me, it doesnt mean I cant be happy at the same time. These things need not be exclusive of one another, it is perfectly acceptable to be working on aspects of my life, working hard, pushing forth, and still be happy. Hell, working on these things should increase my happiness anyways, as I get myself lined up to pursue dreams I have set on the back burner for years now.
I have had various things in my life that I put off, that I push back, with the thoughts that I have to have this in order to do that, and that in order to do this, but now I know that I can work on multiple things as I go for what I want. For the longest time getting things in order seemed to be the natural progression of things, but thats not how life is. Life is a series of events, one takes us left, one spins us around, and neither of these is wrong, and at the same time, they might not be right, but thats life, and that will always be life. So the question came up, how do I expect to ever have everything in order, how do I expect to get things sorted so that I can pursue something I want, if life isnt going to play by the same rules? Well I cant, I have to just move forward, now, while I can afford to and when the only one it will really affect is me.
So lets see, that means that I am allowed to work on things and be happy at the same time, and also pursue dreams even though I am working on other things? That seem right to you? Seems right to me!
Once I let this information sink in, I realized why I would be able to do things like this. I have an amazing support system. The people in my life are some of the most supporting and encouraging people you will ever meet. These are people that came into my life by being there from the get go, and these are people that I have met along the way, but they all have something in common. They believe in me, and in turn, I believe in them as well. I will back these people because I know they deserve it, I know they are worthy of all my support and encouragement, and I know this, because they give it to me, sometimes I dont think they even know they are doing it, but they do!
Every person that comes into our lives affects it in some way, hopefully they will do so in a positive manner, and those are the people to keep around, those are the people to invite to stay, to share your world with, to trust. The negative people will come and go, let them. These people are there to teach us lessons, and to show us how not to act in regards to the world around us. Dont be an asshat, that stuff will come back to you ten fold if you do. It really does come down to what Paul said in that famous Beatles tune, In the end the love you take is equal to the love you make. This is true on many levels, but first and foremost it shows you to put out there what you want to see given to you. If you are going to take a lot of love, you better be prepared to make a lot of it too. Dont expect things to magically show up for you if you are an angry spiteful person.
That is why I give my all for those I care about, and I see it come right back to me, and it feels pretty damned good! Believe in what you want, but I know I am blessed by something somewhere for the people that have come into my life, that have stuck around, that have taught me, that have supported me, that have loved me. There is something out there looking over me and because I choose to respect it, it leads me in the right direction, helps me find the people I need in my life, the people that will be there for me, and in turn the people that will need me, and the people I will be there for. It is my pleasure to be there for them, they are amazing people, and I am glad that they think I am someone they can trust, that they can vent too, that they can seek out for advice. I have a truly awesome role in this world, and I take it seriously.
I know that no matter how deep a hole I find myself in, if I cant get out on my own, these people will be there to help me out. They wont ask questions, they wont point accusing fingers, they wont tell me they told me so, they will just be there, as I am for them. Knowledge of this type is what can take some of the fear out of things, things like moving to another country.
So, you can see why I am a happy person, even though I know there is plenty of work to be done.
You can see why I am happy, even though I dont know how the journey is going to go.
The last realization I had was that I should thank these people, and tell them what they mean to me. I should be doing this on an individual basis, but I want to put something out there that lasts, and so I shall.
Thank you for your friendship, for your guidance, for your support. Youve all helped me become who I am, and I am eternally grateful to you for that. Youve all taught me things that I needed to know, things that got me to this point in my life. Youve all given me perspective on things that seemed so far out of my grasp. Youve seen me at my lows, and youve seen me at my highs, and your view of me never changed, you knew that neither fully defined me, and accepted all of me. Weve got a long way to go, and I know you will be coming along with me for the ride, as I will be with you!
Thank you, and I love you.
Good luck, as always.